Xiaokaka Land

2006-08-22T02:07:00.000+08:00

we finally met up.
met up with that familiarity.
no, you still seem so far to me.
things change. you changed alot too.
time changes so much of a person.
a person whom i used to understand and love so much.
now i dun even recognise you for who you are.

friends remember special dates.
friends sms each other to congratulate them and wish them good luck.
friends do things for each other w/o having to remind them.
but u lost that sense of commitment.
we lost everything that we used to have.
and this time i know even after what happen, nothing is going to come back anymore.
i dun feel disappointment anymore.Maybe it will always be a memory lost in my life.
yi shen zhong de yi han.

2006-08-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

im back again.
i always do these kind of stupid stuffs. yes i know. STUPID.
you promise to look for me.
promised. but to you, promises are always meant to be broken.
and yet i believed your beautiful lies. yea, i chose to believe.
I know they are lies, lies that made me happy, even for a while..
But come to think of it.
i dont need these lies to carry on in my life anymore.
so, dun bother lying to me when i know they will never come true.
For it meant nothing.

Mummy says good lil gals and boys dont lie.
So save them.

2006-05-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

hie diary,
havn been here fer a long time.
i know u wont read this blog anymore,
dats y i left my message here.

u once told me to wait fer u, fer 2 yrs.
i tot it was a joke.
after we broke up,
u said if i wan to wait i wait, if not den dun wait.
wad a selfish answer.leaving me hanging in de air.
but still i waited.
1 yr, 5 mths 24 days i've waited..6 mths 6 more days..
endured these hurtful days..i wouldn wan to think anymore

that's de promise.
but if u change ur mind,
i wont blame u. i've nv blamed u.
it all happened bcos of my fault.
i dunno how to love u.
u're right..
since its so hard, we sud juz let go.
de love once so strong.

281106 is de day i'll let u decide
if u choose to let go..
i'll forget everything.
我爱你，
我恨我。

2005-12-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

i really have no idea what i should feel.
1 year 1 day passed
sad? disappointed? happie? confused?
i hav no feelings now..
i wan to find my feelings..
i dun feel like crying, neither do i feel like smiling..
what am i going to do..
it feels so numbed..

bot a card.. but i'll nv have a chance to give it to u..
wrote lots of things..
so much on my mind to tell u
a million ways u made me happie,
a million reasons to make u stay..

loving you makes me feels so helpless.
i cant tell u how much i love you,
i cant care for you..
i cant do anything..
i cant love you.

2005-12-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

tmr is a special day..
its JOEY"s burfday..
happie happie BurfdaY!!
of cos she's aredi applied for leave..
and for 1 whole week dats it..
hmmph. so i wont b seeing her till next week..

anyws. i've made plans to meet kokie, amy n lai + jackie i think on sat for ramen 10..
i simply love de spicy chicken cutlet ramen..
i juz love them..
i wanna take pictures..bleahz.
yummy yummy..
im salivating..

hmm, brendan dun b so sad le ok.
cheerioz..

im super rottin,cos i've had no moods to do my work..
n tmr im havin my theory test..
i beta pass. or im goin to cry..

okiz.. take care stranger..

2005-11-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

trying to look nice and presentable going out.
trying to do my projects in 2 weeks time.
trying to concentrate on de reality n drift away from fantasy.
trying to figure out what is the real me.

pushin things out of my mind, not wanting to get hurt anymore.
this is being selfish..

dun ask me how's life..

失去了才知道什么是最重要
听说你快回到她身边了
好好爱她
一定要幸福

2005-11-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

realisation is a gift.
finally.

2005-11-28T14:58:00.000+08:00

reached home at 2 pm...
it started to drizzle very lightly..
i couldn differentiate between raindrops and teardrops.

忘记你爱我的原因
明天起我不认识你
我会鼓起勇气
爱情很美丽
可是也很无情
我相信我可以
去争脱那些回忆

hmm, thanks jie sung for calling me wen i her..
at least wen i nid some1..
even for dat short 5 minutes conversation..
thanks.. =)

im home..
nothin much to do..
i can sleep.

drinks.. sud hav drank dat day we met up..
mite juz make ppl feel better..

2005-11-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

i nv seen him or heard from him again.

2005-11-26T14:49:00.000+08:00

如果从来一遍我们能走多远
时间不断重复着思念
距离台北纽约我们分隔两边
划分我们之间的界线

我恨我当初没有把你留下
我不该以为自己很伟大
听着你说对于未来的梦想
你说想去闯我不该阻挡

你过的好吗有比我好吗
是否还像从前的任性模样
还习惯一个人住吗
独立让人成长我相信
你有双坚强的翅膀

你过的好吗还会爱我吗
听说你身边多了个爱你的她
她应该对你很好吧
代替我的肩膀照顾你
快乐的飞翔
如果能够从来一遍我们能走多远

2005-11-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

i juz felt dat something is not right.
from de moment i heard de bang and de car crash into the motorbike.
de driver fell.. he picked himself up after 1 min.
trying to get back into the situation...

i was wondering..
my mind starts to flash.
dat i wont b seeing you..
not anymore.
its tiring to hold on.
3 more days.
merely friends.

2005-11-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

went out wif a new fren of mine.
BenNy..
watched a action movie..
called sha po lang..
actually wanna catch excorcism of emily rose.
but dere wasn any slots for dat..
i told u lot 1 is ulu..
and indeed a very COLD yet ulu cinema..

this is the 1st time watching a action movie wif 4 male leads and no female actress
and i cried..
man.. grown up man can act pretty well, n de plot is pretty touchin.
shows their pride and loyalty for brotherhood yea.
im glad i restrained myself from grabbing him..
or else i'll regret again..
cos is rellie freezing in dere..
i can sense de shivers..

yupz, anyw we went to eat sakae..
de bof of us ate lik pigz..
n i mean real pigz.

hmm. im rellie bored..
not by him.. but by my life..
isn dere supposed to b something intriguing and fascinatin to boast bout?
i guess not..
juz tumblerz and tumblers of misery and stupid waiting..
kind of sad huh..
but what to do..
it still carries on, draggin as if dere's nothin to live for.
waiting for dat spark to ignite de fire of life..
im glad..=D

please.. lemme know some things at least..

2005-11-22T13:37:00.000+08:00

its DanNon's burfday!!
hmm, sho sadz, no one to celebrate for him..
shall get him a super cute prezzie..
hurhur.. i cant believe wads up my sleeve.. heh..

happie happie buRfdAy!!!
muackz..

hmm, went to k yest wif minshan, yean ling n mengsy..
wow wow.. i miss de times together.
cant wait to meet up again!!!
=)
miss u miss u miss u..
meet up! meet up! meet up!

2005-11-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

most of them had finished their A levels.
this time its for real..

it has already ended.
i juz seem to accept this fact yet.
mayb cos i've been out of touch wif de kind of mudane lifestyle.

im on my own. rellie.
feeling independent.

hmm, i dunno why..guess i've been thinkin too much..
stressing myself n gettin myself worried bout wads goin to happen..
of cos nothin is goin to happen..
silly gal.
i mite juz get out of this soon.
i rellie think i would if i worked a a litter harder.
and concentrating on those who's been standing by.
quite gotten used to this kind of lifestyle.
maybbie i sudn change at all.
juz remain lik dat..

NotHin iS goIng to ChaNge..
bU shI mA.

take care my friend.

2005-11-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

this time im sure i want to dream of you.

当初彼此不够成熟坦白
热情不在笑容勉强不来。

我的脸上始终侠带一抹浅浅的无奈。

爱你穿越时间，我要得只是你在我身边。

2005-11-15T10:22:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of constable ah cai again,
felt kinda weird y i dreamt of him.
and de scenes look kinda sweet.

im not sure to b happie or sad..
cos b4 i slept i alwiz tell myself i wanna dream of _____
but they alwiz turn out to b someone else.

and dat funny constable ah cai so bu yao lian say i'll fantasize bout him.
eekz...

anyw..
wen i went home i saw de bottles of sodium phosphate and sachet of fortrans lying on my dining table.
i din expect dat i've been giving it to so many ppl n not feeling a thing, but now daddy had to go for de test..
plus blood ocult stool test..
appointment for colonyscopy..
they all had cancer..
in de terminal stage.. passed away last nite..
it wouldn happen right?
this wouldn happen again. tell me it wont happen..

have no idea what awaits..

2005-11-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

毁坏的沙雕如何重来, 有裂痕的爱如何重盖？

ponder upon de words above..
miss u miss u darling loads... =(

if only i din asked,
if only i din get to know.
i would have lived de remaining days in peace.
now im so afraid.
u're goin so far away..

2005-11-14T09:43:00.000+08:00

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬
失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么
没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

this is the lyrics of this song. super nice.. n meaningful!!!
my top most favourite..

2005-11-14T02:39:00.000+08:00

hmm,
late into de nite,
here i m gossiping wif 2 guys.
yest i received 2 wrong number calls.
bof at nite.
at 12 am some more.
was sitting at de bed waiting for my hair to dry..
de surprising thing is, de number is ______ no.
callin to ask for a _ _ _ _ _.
i know who he is,
buts he called de wrong number.
i almost din want to pick up de call..

shocked me.
i've got lik 5 projects on my hands now.
its rellie tiring..

n i've got dates pending..
wif all my frens after de A's dats ending SOON.

i think i've been repeating like dozens of tmes.
i juz miss them loads.

i love de nite sky..
giving me ample time to go thru my life.
what m i goin to do.
my plans in life.
i have none right now.
::muackx::

countdown-20days
it seems lik my days are numbering.
my death date is coming.
i duno if i wanna live till then.
spending de remaining days in a imaginary world

2005-11-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

hmm, dere are some enquiries im curious bout,
but i cant ask..
it seems so weird juz to ask..
anyw its none of my business,
it would b too busybody for me to ask..
we're not dat close too..

i've ran out of ideas.
what sud i do?

de class is not rellie bonded..
3 is left out..
rellie left out..
sudn we feel sympathetic for them.
it mite not b their fault.its not fair.
mayb they've changed.

loved you more than i tot i would.
its not cute anymore.

2005-11-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

what a laugh,
my macro tutor is a joker.
mr zai zai.
de whole class luff thru out de lesson.
thou its a pretty long day today.

loaned harry potter soccerer stone at de library today.
watched halfway n gotta go for tutorial le. =(
its kinda amazing, i remembered i watched b4.
but still i forgot de whole story.

hmm, add ons, my tutor nephew actually is my neighbour.
and he kps goin on n on how he hopes he'll find a gf among us.
and we were like, er hem.. *coughs*
he's pretty cute anyway.

ok, my hair is getting from bad to worse wif the stupid frizzy thing..
n i promise to go for treatment wif joycie PLUS hmm, i dunno wanna rebond again not..

hmm, dere aint anything interesting in sch today.
nor anywhere. juz another boring sch day.
counting down-24 days [sho miserable]

2005-11-09T00:03:00.000+08:00

listen to this song,
captivated by it.
one of de songs from SHE's zhen ming tian nu ost..

im still so affected. hmmz.
ur rellie sud go watch andy lau's movie.
thumbs up =)
really sweet n touching..
watch wif ur loved ones.
let them know dat u cherish them.

dere's lik so many projects coming up,
and half of them is juz similar to pw.
imagine havign to do so many pws in less den 2 months.
dats like alot of work.

n i hav to cater to dates by frens too.
which my dearest min shan has aredi booked,
not forgetting 04A41..
n i cant wait to see pingx.
i havn see u since de earthquake erupted yah.
hee. meant to b a lie to dupe our gullible little ms wan ping.

hmms, anyw i realise dat christmas is coming super soon..
im leaving..
im goin to abandon this place.
absconded into a world of freedom n no more waiting..

its time to grow up and leave de world behind.
let's go..

2005-11-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

had a nice poa tut juz now.
cos i juz simply love that subject..
n i start to love my class more n more..
tmr we'll be havin a french manicure fair, not during lecture of cos.
not forgetting goin to organise a post christmas party.. yayz..

hmm, went to watch andy lau's "all bout love" movie juz now.
de one wif cute charlene choi..
i promised not to cry..
hmm still i cried leh.
cos its like super sad n meaningful..
to spend more time n cherish ur loved one b4 they're gone..
i tot i din cry, till i realised 2 big tear drops roll down my cheeks..
trying hard to hide.
watched at jec..
a memorable place..
but different companion..
a very weird feeling..
dat makes my mood so bad..
i started to think alot.

a story to share:
one dere's a old couple.
lao gong gong likes to walk in big strides at fast pace..
lao po po cant catch up, but she cont hurrying in her small quick steps.
so in their life, they cont this lifestyle..
lao popo kp following lao gong gong..
its bcos of their love for each other dat both nv give up..
does this kind of love still exist?
waiting..
i duno wad im waiting for,
probably waiting for de day my heart stops beating for you.

2005-11-05T02:22:00.000+08:00

i lost all de preious entry, cos de internet blackout on me.
means, this is a retyped entry.

anyw, im looking forward to 26nov 04a41 class nite outing/cycling.
wif my darlings cyan, yi zhi, yanxi, xiaohui, n lovely peeps..
i cant wait..

yupz, as usual i went for fri's lesson alone.
but it isn as bad as i expected.
de gals r super nice.
n de teacher had a nice gossip session wif me..
regarding sajc's sch life..
its so much different from my life now..
wad a change.
ya perhaps i've change alot.

anyw, i love eating Mos burger now.
alwiz had de urge to eat it.
esp mayonise terriyaki.. yummy..
i dun mind travellign jux to buy it alone lik i alwiz does.
no deal having to do things alone.
im growing up..
i still rem u bot this weird taste strawberry shake..
haah great memories, great bus rides.. great skills.
hmm, ya they're oni memories.

things change n ppl change too..
feelings? of cos for some ppl.

i miss de memories.. i miss de movies..
i miss de feelings..
im afraid time passes so fast.. they juz come n go.

2005-10-30T03:38:00.000+08:00

im not pathetic u stupid idiot.
im gonna leave u real soon.
its juz so unfair..
i rellie wish to peel off ur face, stop askin me to do things for u..
i hate being made use of.

ya, n u oso.. i hate u too.
u're not dat cute afterall.
im juz a normal fren..
or mayb im not, juz a stranger..
dun walk into my life anymore.
i dun nid u.
i dunno wad u're sufferin from, u nv tell me
im not bothered to know.
juz get out.

yah. n i miss all my peeps..
i miss minshan's cakes..
anyw, my air con is spoilt forever..
or u wanna camp in moi fridge??
if u dun mind.heh.

juz met up wif js to make purplish shoes..
ist nice.. rellei nice..
i love it to bits..
im gonna show it off.
n i love her too.

had dinner wif pingz n kok..
not forgettin swensens ice cream too.
de earthquake is big eh.
so much for a regular.
tmr we'll b coughin to our death.

wakaka..
anyw i hate makeup lect..
dere's 1 from 5-6.. stupid timin..
it rellie is la..
n i gonna waste my 2 hrs waiting??

n fri's afternon lesson..
im alone afterall. im right. wif new classmates.
i told u im antisocial.. but
dere's alwiz de 1st time..

i beta look forward to my AD/s n stop grumbling..*gRinX*

2005-10-26T14:17:00.000+08:00

hmm.everyone's been busy studying.
dats a very good sign.
cos i can c good grades.. =)

for me, i'll juz stick to my own lonliness n get enuf sleep b4 sch starts again.
den i'll get super busy.
i wanna get a digicam.
cant wait..
hmm,
ya. i wan to tell hai zi de die,
i hate constable ah cai.
not onli does he ps, he's a irritating freak..
and to think de thing i hate most is de feeling of being ps.

thou got ps lots of times..
but hen bu hao shou de!!
nahz, btu im not too bothered by him.
juz chaNGed my opinion of him.
dat he's a idiot.

anyws.
to look on de bright side of life.
im wishing my hair grows long faster.
n u guys end ur As' soon n wil hav lots of time to accompany me le.
can come my hse sleepover oh.. i welcome dat..=)
yessh, lets celebrate..
cant wait for de nice festival seasons dats coming soon.
Christmas, New yr..
its a brand new yr..
another set of resolutions.
new frens..=D
i love pingx

2005-10-22T18:08:00.000+08:00

woke up at 3.43 juz now.
din realise i had such a long sleep.
mite bcos im reallie tire ba.

anyw i juz read the newspaper regarding the lady who died bcos of drug allergies.
did i mention b4 dat my sis work in that clinic?
well, i felt so sorry for de decease but i seriously believe its not the doctor's fault.
and its aredi been announced that de doctor is not at fault.
the decease din noe dat she's allergic to any medicine
and no doctors had found any6thin wrong wif havin augmentin n postan tog.

sometime patients rellie nid to b more conscious of theirself.
they av to provide us with the correct allergies.
cos they'll hav a card wif their allergies.
if not how do we know?
we're juz doin our job by dispensing the medicine.
some jzu say they think its this this medicine w/o providing us wif the names..
pls, im not a doctor or whoever.
n i feel that de press sudn juz release de clinic's address to the public.
its so unfair to the doctor.
thou the doctor is found to b inocent,
but m sure her clinic's reputation will b somehow adversly affected.

its juz like de 2 person who received de kidney transplant n died.
de donor is jzu trying to do something good by donating his kidneys,
how in the world would he know they carries the dengue bacteria.

im done wif these articles.. argz..
n sch's coming in 1 weeks' time.
im so lonely.
everyone is busy wif their As'
n im left alone.
felt kinda sad.
cant find any1 to play wif me.
n i din wanna bother u guys..
study hard ba..

2005-10-18T14:04:00.000+08:00

finally i can hav some peace..
i can sleep till noon..
i can do anything i wan..
i ly down n look at de air.

im so very confused wad i wan..
im afraid.
hao fan oh..

i wanna paint my rm..

2005-10-14T23:39:00.000+08:00

i slept in the afternoon,
cos i had the flu jab n im down wif some urti.
doc ling gave me some kids vitamin, cos he said im too weak..
anyw, i kept waking up.
dere's this dream..
kinda weird.
y do i kp dreaming of him?
y cannot lemme dream of another him?
hmm, n my pri sch fren came into de picture..
i still remember he's alex.
de one i miss i cant even dream of him..
zhen tao yan.

im goin shoppin..
finally..
i miss mensy..
i miss minshan..
i miss sharon..
i miss my princess jie sung..
wo bian de hao bu xiang wo..
i havn been doin this for a long time..

i feel so weird dat im actually used to doing dat everyday..
now my smses seem so simple.
hao xiang nian..

i hate that stupid dhasedyl drug addict..
he beta dun come back to get medicine,
and to think he opens a pet shop.
wad a idiot..n he's a thief..
my patience is stretching..
some patients r really too much..
sick aredi still can make so much noise..
noisy makers means u're still healthy to b able to do dat..
those quiet ones r d more sickly ones..
so stop making so much noise..

cant think of anything happie now..
im so irritated..
where r u?

2005-10-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

hmmm, so many ppl luffing at me..
is it cos im stupid or m i careless?
or sud i sign up for de sch?
argz.. i cant make up my mind..
my aunt asks if i wanna go australia wif her next week..
im pondering..
but no one go wif me..
wanan ask my sis go. but she stil schooling..
cannot apply for leave..
hm, i rellie wan to go on a hol n relax.

hmm, wad's wrong wif him?
or is it im too witty n chatty?
i think im a talkative box..
but it depends to whom im tokin to..
i can b very very very quiet too..
n i mean real quiet..

2005-10-12T13:43:00.000+08:00

waking up so early in de mornign everyday..
im super tire..
so im sleeping early everyday le.. =)
anyw, i failed my theory 2nd time..
im super disappointed..
n i very lazy to go book another date le..
guess im too stupid or wad ba..
nid some kind of motivation..
dun luff at me hor..
i've enuf of mockery.

i nid to hv fun..
im working so hard.. duno for wad..
cos im still single n very very free!!argz..
n i hate my hair cos its been cut so short i look lik a freak..
n its rellie super short u know.. Sobz sobz..

2005-10-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

hee hee.. im mad bout de dumb forum..
but tire n sick of it..
cos some dumb ppl spamming over dere..
anyw i love k-boxing..
but not wif smokers anymore..
so i promise to go for more rounds..
im addicted
so is jes n cai.

2005-09-29T02:19:00.000+08:00

i rellie becomign fatter le cos im reaching 44 kg soon..
n im super sad yet at this time of de nite,
i cant help btu cook myself food to eat again..
m i a lazy piz..
yes..
cos soon im goin to bed on a full stomach..
im rellie so xing fu..
chi bao le jiu shui..

n now im goin to bed.. nitex n muackx my darling..

2005-09-21T02:25:00.000+08:00

im watching mars in de middle of de nite..
to kp myself occupied thru de hols..
dere's not much programmes goin on..
and everyone who's on msn seems dead..
cos they juz doesn seem to reply me.
or r they juz pretending to ignore me.

im bored n irritated..
i juz wanna stay at home and rot to death..
dun even wanna step out of de hse.
im super irritated..
hmm, mayb im irritating ppl too.

zai zai doesn looks too cool in de show.
and big S doesn look dat appealing either,
wif no glamourous outfits nor gorgeous settings and posh cars..
juz a simple tale of de sacred knight..

im goin to bed...
nitex.. =(
life isn very exciting at this phrase..
cos its stagnant and dead..
breeding those harmful ades moquitoes.
im itchy.............. =(

2005-09-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

我好久没看到你了。
好想你哦。

ok, i know im abit slow..
er, mayb not abit,
very slow lah..but i juz watch initial D...
kaoz..
有感而发。

like many others i think they're rellie rellie very cool.
i still like edison thou..
*bubbles bubbles*
i wanna find a bf like him..
i noe oni in my dreams ba..

yah, and ofo one of de scenes wen jay actually pouts his mouth..
好像你哦。
真的真的好像。
让我不仅想起你。

those who wanna watch again,
i dun mind watchin again.. haha
i got de dvd wor..
*gRiNx*
i cant help smiling while watching..
n my dad kps luffing at me..
he thinks m weird cos im smiling at de tv..
wahaha..
i think im crazy too..
de forum is down n im home alone.
cai is so bz to tok to me..
n i went to ZzzZZ cos im super tire after 1 week of studying..
oni been slpin like a few hours a day..
goin to b kinda busy soon yah..

going out n working ..
and shun bian rotting..
but i need to find ppl to rot wif me.

he suggests me to find work or a male..
i guess i needed both..
i've gotten jobs.. i need to find a male..
wahaha..

i realise i din hav a deam juz now.
hmm..did i? or did i not?

some ppl ar some ppl.
dunno hwo to get hints de..
hx, scram..
gt away from my world..
it irritates me so much jzu to receive even a simple forward msg from u..

2005-09-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

yahz.. and dats it. im done wif my first sem..
only to b stressed again on 6th oct wen i'll receive my results..
im not being paranoid..
i juz din wan to get Cs..
cos i hate Cs..
basically im filled wif hatred cos i hate almost everything.

im getting more n more irritable as days goes by.
wads happening to de world?
i noe i sud b a little more gentle n not so hot tempered..
but who cares..

im goin tanning next week
and this time i rellie mean it.

damn, some ppl r juz so ______
i juz hate u so much.
im not goin to bother bout u again thou u nv seem to fail me.
*scratches my head*
y m i doin this?

i think im goin malaysia shoppin wif my mates..
i love em, cos i juz went k boxing wif them today.
i feel so high man, jumping ard de sofa..
lacked de feel..
luckily de windows din break..

it wouldn b nice to noe dat u din care..
did i said im paranoid?
yes i guess i still am.

get away from me..

2005-09-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

hmm, kinda mood swinging again today.
my mood goes from a high acheiver, to a low morale booster now.
wad happened to me?

i screwed up on my biz stats today..
and i seriously aint feeling very great.
im so angry wif myself.
blaming myself for doin so slow, n not being able to recap all de things i studied..
i hate myself for being so dumb.
and i din wan to forgive confucious for his encouragement of
introducing de exam system.
i wonder y i couldn go back to de old dynasty..

wearing those nicey lacey dress w/o having to study..
juz match make me and lemme live a happie life.
aint i traditional?

my wish is juz so simple.
but in reality, its darn hard to make it come true.
as i laid on de sofa after getting hm from a long day at sch n work..
isn dere any1 to gimme a hug..
juz to console me n gimme some encouragement..
oni erika did it..

she was so nice.
she walked up to give me a hug wen im damn stress.
she made me feel dat she cares.. =) thanks gal.

i wanted to cry so much,
but realise nothin comes out.
i think so hard,
wishing dat wen i go to bed,
i'll dream of u, even if i cant c u in reality,
let me dream of u.

for i know everything in life is destined.
mayb we will meet again.
juz mayb.

cos i had a insight,
dat we will meet again..
someday some place.
you and me,
our last hug of goodbye?

if u and me, we've known this earlier,
will things still b de same?
or will we step out of each other's life,
and never even have de chance to b frens.
i know its hard..

take care my fren.

2005-09-12T14:42:00.000+08:00

im so angry right now..
this stupid crush..
doin things dat i hate..
im so so so jealous..
im goin to bed for my nap..
im not goin to dream of him anymore.. !!!
wo yao bei qi si le..

2005-09-12T02:50:00.000+08:00

last min work for me..
cos im feeling panicky le..
havn been readin much..
cos de ZzzZZ monster is alwiz out to get me..

and now. finally got de energy to stay up to mug..
its lik 3 am in de morn now..
juz finish bizstats abit..
so now feeling abit not so guily anymore. =)

im lik super tire..
and ppl say my eye bags is so so big..
im super sad.. cos this week i hav to stay up late again..
means my eye bags will get even worse.. =(

haha hai zi de die dun b so sad k?
i know we still hav lots of chances to lunch tog de..
dun worry too much..
or else i'll steal de papers n grade u an A.. =)

today dannon open a few nice cd for me to listen..
some of de songs super nice lah..
and i think my blog's song now.. ke you lun de ling..
super nice.. muz on it loud loud..
and muz hav de feel u know..
dat kind of FEEL!!

super sad lor.. makes me so sad again..
long time nv sad le wor..
anyway.. i wanna go k box!
haha.. i've been stressing dat for yrs..
i jzu need to endure for 5 more days and im freed..
hope i can do well..
i dun wanna freak out..
i wan a superbly wonderful transcript..yayz.

so im kinda bored after readin for de past hour..
so im here to blog n to chat..
and i noe im so sleepi..
oni hai zi de die tok to me..
im so argz.. nvm.. =)
much loves- kat
[think im too stress]

2005-09-10T13:13:00.000+08:00

i cant wake up this morning as i've promised pingz i'll meet her at 8..
sorie dear.. and u had to study alone at this cold n sickly library..
and now, we're here again.. at this conspicous corner of the library..

i juz cant seem to concentrate..
pls throw away this laptop so i can focus..
i've no time to waste n here im wasting my time away..
so.. i shall blog again SOON.

2005-09-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

increased dengue fever cases..
so scary..
Dr ling is so suspicious of himself cos he's feeling feverish..

i juz dun understand y Dr kelvin goh n rohana is trying so hard to match make me..
haha.. i dun wanna noe Dr yee or Dr ooi..
they're all kinds too mature for me..
haha.. so funnie they 2..
juz makes me wanna luff wen working wif em.
dats nice..

anyway.. im so sick n tire these days..
working n mugging so hard..
but i've got so much nice frens ard..
n next week is my last week of hardwork b4 i slack again..
sian half..
n yest reminded me of some bad thing..
got one pretty gal came to buy postinor..
a poison dat eaten le 99% wont conceive de, cos of unprotected sex..
see her so pretty but do this kind of thing.. haiz..
i advise her use condom, thou 95% safe oni.. haha
ok lah.. im not so mean..wahaha..

i miss minshan. she hasn been toking to me for months..
she's so mean..
and pingz.. nv wake me up from my slp..
lemme slp n slp n slp.. im gonna flunk my exams..
shit.. this is shit..
im not in a rush..
relax.. slowly look ard first..
18 is still so young..
but i muz get married by 23, i dun care.. hmmph!! *winkz*

2005-09-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

演唱:柯有伦
柯有伦-零
从来不相信
我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦寂寞还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿孤独懒得再去想谁
两个人一起是
否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去
然后忘记一切
没想过有天
我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂
怎么会哭谁错谁对为谁抱歉
不会再哭谁错谁对为谁憔悴
走入零度空间
等到一切分裂就算爱的危险
我们一起面对来不及的防备
没听过的誓言要我怎么学会
多了爱的明天
走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累
我却不会后悔
放下所有防备
一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界
开始新的明天
新的明天
新的世界

2005-09-07T15:48:00.000+08:00

afternoon all this is huang ping, the guest blogger today :]
anyway kat, me and sharon are stuck here in NP mugging for the coming exams next week. how sad can that be sighs. i hope ppl reading this will wish me good luck for the remaining papers cos' i seriously can't make it!
i've not seen dear kathy for centuries years long until like this week? you bet i miss her loads (:
met up at lim bang mac on monday for some studying session which turn out to be damn unproductive and unfruitful and we finally spent $2.70 to take a cabbie to her house and tata! we miraculously fell asleep. and i wouldnt want to mention the thin, creepy and small DEAD lizard which laid soundly in her sister's econs text. ahhh disgusting. i bet the lizard wouldnt have dreamt that his entire life fell right to the arms of a econ text.
oh by the way, econs is really a killer subject. i can't seem to pass it since last year :[
and i didn't know poly students mug so hard until recently. heh.
i'm so looking forward to 18 sep haha.
ok i'm going back to my books. god bless me.

p.s i think this seems more like my private entry rather than a guest entry. sorry kat! and i hope you study hard for your paper and stop sleeping around :] don't tire yourself up and best of luck for your papers. hugs, much love.

2005-09-04T01:30:00.000+08:00

hmm, im sleepi..
im alwiz sleepy.. and dannon says i looked rellie tire..
well, is he a eye candy or crush??
haha.. i wont tell who is he..
not as blatantly as zhe bin who juz announced to de whole world..
im not dat _______.

he's erm, nice..
alwiz listens to my problems and talk to me..
accompany him till 6 plus in de morning to complete his sch work..
den he ask me out for breakfast.. haha.. so sweet..
but i din go, cos im too too tire..
but he's still nice..
i know dere'll b chances to go out again.. hopefully ba..
planned to go k- boxing wif him next week wor.
wif some others oso.. =)
im excited..

i cant wait..

i hope i can meet pinzg next week..
its been ages n decades since i last saw her..
this time im determined..
stop spoiling my plans.
im afraid of u.. afraid of wad i mite do next..
dun b so nice to me suddenly,
i dun deserve this..
go away..
stay away from my life..

2005-09-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

im alwiz online, but i din blog..
heex.. not purposely de..
anyw, i met cyan at bp today..
i called out to him..
and im so so glad dat he still recognise me..
and REMEMBERED my name..
im so so happie..
i love cyan! he's rellie nice, and still as blur as eva.
dats wad i like bout him.. blur n cute..
i like cute guys..
anyone out dere?

hmm, went for tennis, but its raining..
on de last day of de module.. yay
and de teacher let us off.
to think i wasted so long travelling to sch.. =(

anyway, i oso forget wad i wanna blog.
juz think dat im living a great life now..
except mayb juz missing a part of him?
de missing prince of kat's..
heez.. wen will he appear..
im so impatient, i cant wait!!
haha.. im excited..

anyw i rellie needa study..
stop procastinatin.. !!

2005-08-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

hmmph, went to watch de maid wif feral yest..
so weird..
its rellie so so weird..
its supposed to b a horror,
but i feel so sian..
mayb its de accompanyment..
not used to watching wif another guy.
not used to it..
rellie not used to it..
im not scared of horror..
nto unless he suddenly come grab my arms,
kanna frightened once..

i shant force myself to b anymore..
think its beta and more comfortable to watch wif pingz..
i rellie miss pingz..
i miss you..
i feel so sad..
and im sleepi..
today is sharon's burfday, happie hapie burfday!
i love u.. muackx..
hmm, i nid to rush my project and my exams now..
busy busy little kathie.. sobz..
i wanna meet pingz!!!
angry kathie..

2005-08-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

oopz.. its time to blog bout cip..
last week of cip le..
muz blog bout our reflections..
basically i din rellie learn much in cip..
juz how to do home page and some ms documents..
and including pbl..
can say im not rellie interested in computing lor..
so no mood to study..
so i guess i nida mug real hard for de coming papers..
depend on my lect handouts le..

but still, im glad i learnt how to create this blog.
a nice one at least.. heh..
but the teacher is nice.. very very nice,
she'll try to help us out whenever we are in "trouble" wif this high tech stuffs..
cos i guess we're all computer idiots..
wow.. anyway,
i hope they'll implement more teaching in lessons next time..
which would b more conducive and can pay more attention to de..
so dat i can rellie rellie absorb wad is taught and not anyhow fumble ard..

2005-08-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

realised its been some days since i last blogged..
dunno wad i've been doing too..
hmm, attended church today..
i love de medley of praises..
i love de songs sang by a grp of ppl..
de voices are juz so soothing accompanied by dat peaceful song..
but i feel like a big light bulb..
alone at de bench, as if im interrupting..
i sud learn to be more automatic ba..

anyway, today i met alot of frens whom i've lost contact..
soh xiang ling and vivian tan..
they've both grown to b so pretty..
wow.. prettie babes..
they're nice ppl.. =)

got a ob project to rush on..
so tiring.. urgs.. having a presentation on thurs..
dats so demoralizing..
wanna go beaching, k-boxing..
haha.. i need a life..
but i need to mug too..
suddenly, time is running out..
i rellie need good grades for my final exams..
nto forgetting im having my theory exam for basic car tmr..
dats shit, cos i havn memorise anything..
holy bless me..

phew, i think i havn change abit..
de tot of you juz stress me out..
and for some weirdos, pls dun call me in de middle of de nite..
u hav no rights to say u miss me.. dats quite disgusting..
i dun even know u..

and some prankster is up again sending me mails..
saying i've got a secret admirer..
r u a gal?
sad to say, i mite b a les..
dun b so mysterious, i mite not get excited..

i wanna meet up wif minshan.. meet up wif pingz..
its been so long le..
im missing u guys so badly im having a migraine..
pls say u do miss me too..
i've got so much to tell u..
im having my hols soon..
not forgetting de dreaded EXAMZ..
pls b merciful..
love everyone.. including you, you you..

say kathie is cute.. =)
-kathie-

2005-08-23T01:21:00.000+08:00

*yawnz*
havn been havign enuf sleep..
muz i rellie faint n b admitted to hospital before
confning me wif fatigue??
stupid migraine, feels like a egg goin to b hatched at the left side of my brain..

i seriously think doctor Ling is very nice..
he's so gentle for a doctor..
haha.. and not to forget, he's nice too..
alwiz buying cakes and chocolates to replenish our energy level.
i love being a kinky nurse. .

had lunch wif kok hsien today..
felt its been decades since i last seen him..
guess we're all kinda busy wif our lifes..
but hey, we still feel de same for each other.
lik dolphin said, our friendship had reached a unprecedent level..
unseen, unreachable yet warm..
sweet feeling..
we prata at bukit timah.. and we're rellie full..
can feel my flabs wen we were on de bumby bus rides..
my eyes juz couldn remain wide open..
the lids juz seem to loves each other so much dat they closes up..

anyway, went to lot 1 for a while to look for my fren n dean..
saw a cool and cute guy.. haha..
mayb its time to make him my eye candy wor..

been in the forum so long dat i eel sick n tire of it aredi.
as i've said, a typical gemini gal like me...
grows tire of things easily..
but not frens likes pingz..
i miss her hell loads..
she hasn been smsing me for a week.

felt like a part of me missed her.
but she's bz muggin.
i sud start muggin for my exams too..

i wanna breeze at the stones,
dat rocky coasta rock..
admire de stars shining bright above,
never fails to listen to my woes.
praying to my fair lady,
who's alwiz dere for me.
i surrender.. *raise white flag liao*

wen i suddenly come to the realisation some things are juz meant to be.
it shall remain like this.. isn it great?

No, it isn great at all.
some things will nv be mended..
i shall be a little kinder and live wif a little more love..
dats wad makes de world goes round..

i cant wait for lunch tmr..
lunching wif hai zi de die..
im 5 mths..
u can see from the flare clothe and de horrendous amt of food i take in everyday..

2005-08-22T02:51:00.000+08:00

wakaka..
kathie katz went shoppn wif joycie and jia hao..
at bugis..
bot a neat dark thick black frame..
makes me look so nerd..
fulfilled my dreams of being a nerd..
and i bot lotsa of stuffs..
nearly costing me 200 buckz..

im a village gal..
intensive shoppin in 5 mths..
haha.. im so happie wif all my buys..
yayz.
we went fish n co-ing too..
soent another bunch of cash..
haiz.. haha.. machiam rich lady..

n took losta idiot pics.. but we're so cute..
shall upload soon.. watch out for kathie's new pics..
im so happie..
but next week gonna b busy wif work le..
and gonna have my exams soon..
after dat can havoc ard and start my tanning sessions..
yayz..

peeps who are muggin hard for prelims..
my dear frens.. gambatE nehz..
if u feel tire or stress out, gimme a call,
i'll help u massage.. heex..
free service..
i love my frens..
happie studying..
-kathis katz.-

2005-08-18T15:24:00.000+08:00

kakaz..
went pizza-ing wif tb09 at bukit timah plaza today..
ate like a pigz..
yayz..
its nice having class bonding yea..

finally see jie sung in sch, munching on her red apples..
oopx.. haha..yay.. finally got chance to tok to her..
miss her so much.. *muackz gal*

im free de whole of sat..
din wanna work..
anyw, i met a rellie weird lady customer
who wanted to have dinner wif me.. wakaka..
scary.. argz.. i so scare of her..
how how??

im a kinky nurse..
kathie kat's a kinky nurse..
=) *gRiNx*

i wanna go sun tanning..
tanning tanning tanning..
wee leong darling said he wanted to help me apply sun tan lotion...
so sweet wor.. wakaka.. =D
but not this month.. oooppx..

2005-08-16T13:30:00.000+08:00

heh, im at canteen 3.. juz had my lunch..
now having my desert, spelt correctly rite?
im havin ice jelly, but w/o fruits..
haha..
i told u im growing fat..
i juz cant help eating..
im in too good a mood everyday..
ate famous amos yest, den had loads of chocolate..
and even ice cream..
my exams coming liao.. beginning of sept,
and after dat is vacation le.. yayz.. =)

dear pingz dun mug too hard and fall sick again ok?
u've lost weight..=(

2005-08-15T11:51:00.000+08:00

im happie happie happie,
cos i love my class tb09..
dean said i became fatter..
argz...
i muz muz muz diet...
no determination at all...
eat n eat..

2005-08-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

i love tb09 so much..
muackz..
esp my sweetie darling wee leong..
vincent dun b jealous ok..
hahaz..and i love all of them..
and i rellie mean ALL..except for 1..
oopz..
okiz..
lets go bbqing and class bonding again..
its so fun!=)

anyw im home alone again..
nobody date me xia..

2005-08-12T13:38:00.000+08:00

hahaz..
went prata-ing yest wif tb09..
yayz..
i had alot of food..
i ate fried rice seafood and cheese egg prata..
im so full dat i din had my dinner and my mum actually
cooked curry.. *sobx*
but im on diet ..
hmm, nvm, thinking of goin fish and co-ing on sat nitex..
wanna waste money again.. hahaz.
but i know its fattening.
who wanna join me?
Opened invitation.

from next fri onwards fri would b a breeze..
cos my cats module would have ended,
which left tennis oni..
and preferably wanna come in de morning..
so dat i'll b super free in de afternoon..
and i can go shoppin le. yay.. =D

i love tb09... muacks..
take care my fren..
jia you for prelims..
-GamBaTe-

2005-08-11T12:05:00.000+08:00

i din go back to sa today..
pingz is sick..
no mood to go back..
but i wanna gossip wif min shan..
i wanna hear wad she has to say...
im having a boring life.

2005-08-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

having fun in a new forum..
www.tianyuan.net

visit ok?

2005-08-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

im havin mood swings again..
i hate this feelin..

i hate having my decisions quivered again..
i muz b strong, n not b heeled over by little things.

yu heng's song, shen hu xi.
wo yao wo zi ji jian qiang
wo zhi dao wo neng zhuo dao,
wo jiu yao huo de bi cong qian gen hao..
-kathie katz in one of her moods-

2005-08-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

i hate you..
i hate ur stupid arrangements..
save ur misses and hugs for someone else who appreciates them..
i dun rellie care..
im not goin to meet you..

phew.. finally vent my anger..
serves u right..

hmm today's biz stats was a killer.
nobody knew how to do it..
cos its kinda hard ya..
i tried my very best in studying n finishing it..
its not dat bad for me yet..
hope i can pass.. haha
small expectation..

today is national day eve..
supposed to go on a date..
but i went home..
stupid terence..
its ok, i aredi scolded him..
home alone1..
my mum called me on de fone
and instruct me how to wash de clothes
using washing machine for 10 min..
yah, n now im puttin it into good use..

my daddy has gotten a big n painful swollen finger,
so im doin de washin for him too..
im such a nice gal todae..
and later im gonna finish all my tut for this week..
great ambition.. wah..
*claps for my enthusiam*

weird... sharon asked me if im attached..
haha.. rellie a funny qn.. its so obvious..
haha... im so so so in love right now..
guess lo..for those who dunno.. haha..

im glad dere's no sch on tue, wed n thurs..
so mayb i'll b goin back to sa to get my cert..
guys catch me back if im dere.
n we'll take lotsa nice n pretty photos k..
-take care sweetie- muacks..

2005-08-07T01:08:00.000+08:00

kathie katz is still up..
trying hard to cpmplete my ms doc
cos tmr n mon i need to mug hard for my test..
which is on mon too..
last min work..
heh.. tmr gonna wake up early for church,
but i still got lotsa stuffs yet to finish..

yupz.. juz now went for steamboat at marina..
dere's alot of ppl,
cos its national day celebration..
and my, we saw nice and fantastic firworks..
its beautiful.. and amazing..
totally mesmerized...

yah, and to top up wif dat,
we got free performance by artiste..
mayday, dong jing yue tuan, emil chou,
and my fav Yu Heng..
and i record down de live version of
yi ran shi peng you and shen hu xi..
super nice la..
omg, im juz so captured by her capability
to sing the song so well live..
its a very very nice sad song,
dats wad i like bout it..
my fav song..
i juz love her..
i love de song de most..

oopz.. and i juz realise its yang sen's kor burfday today..
wish him happie 18th burfday..

anyway juz now at marina saw quite some ppl from swiss..
marc n aik siang's clique,
and saw one of my colleague..
mistook me n jackie as couple..
wahahaha.. anyw, we[me,jackie,pingz]
realliy think dat kok hsien and amy rellie looks like couple..
they very compatible.. heex.
amy is so happie wen she heard dat..

im tire.. needa study soon..
-nitex dearie-
rellie wish dat i could watch de fireworks wif u instead..
-muackx-

2005-08-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

i overslept for my morning make up tennis..
but de teacher din scold me,
cos he knew im sick..
he could hear me sniffing 10m away.
but i still went for afternoon tennis anyway..
de sun is scorching hot..
and its so comfy to b in de sun
cos im having a bad nose n need some warmth..

den i took 67 back..
dere's this stupid army guy who boared de bus..
n kp staring at me..

and my elder sis juz told me her fren kelvin sms her today afternoon..
this is wad he msg: " i saw some one like u on de bus.. So alike, so kong bu.."
well, dat basically refers me to as kong bu?
HMMPH.. in wad way m i kong bu?
i oni look a littlel like my elder sis ma..
KONG BU MEH?
well, dunno y recently alot of ppl start tellin me
dat we both look so alike..
alike is alike, but pls next time, dun use KONG BU..

will hurt my vulnerable heart de leh..
heh..
gonna catch guess x3 liao..
-cya guys tmr for steamboat dinner at marina south..
muackx..

2005-08-04T13:23:00.000+08:00

YAY!! it's my turn to be the guest blogger, muahahah!

:D :D

right now we're having ocomm lecture, which is yet another boring and rubbish lecture! that's why i'm here helping miss katherine to blog. hahah. by the way, kat is busy eating jiahao's expensive 5 dollar per pack chunky chocolate cookies. but i wasn't offered any. hur!

oh yea, forgot to introduce myself to kat's lovely friends. i'm her ever dearest classmate, peizhen! ((: heh heh heh. it's high time this girl here link me.

(note to kat: stop shopping online! if not the gaps between your fingers will get bigger! ;P)

2005-08-04T13:00:00.000+08:00

Early in their marriage,
the well- known preacher W.E. Sangster told his wife.
"i cant be a good husband and a good minister.
i am going to be a good minister."

Sangster was in demand as a preacher
and lecturer and was often away on speaking tours.
When he was at home, he seldom took his wife out for dinner or an evening
of entertainment.
Nor did he help with household chores.

his Son noted these failings,
yet out of respect for his father he wrote,
"If a 'good husband' is a man
who loves his wife absolutely...
and dedicates himself to a cause that is greater than both of them,
then my father was as good a husband as a minister"

No doubt Sangster was committed to his wife,
but I believe he could have been a better husband
and a better minister if he had been more concerned for
her needs than for his busy schedule.

Many people in responsible positions have demands
placed upon them,
some that are unavoidable.
But if a christian husband takes seriously Paul's
instruction to love his wife "as Christ also loved the church,"
he will find ways to give of himself for her, even in little things.
That's how Christ, our example, loved the church

A marriage that's neglected
Brings pain and bitterness;
But one that's daily nurtured
Brings peace and happiness -Sper

2005-08-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

*snif snif*
fell sick..
and i stil ate herseys..
cos i wanna yi du gong du..
so i rush home after sch to slp..
was having my medicine..
dere's this virus pasing on in my class..
and now, me n rain got it..
its like bad throat and cough.
de weather is really bad..
but luckily de air con man is coming to fix it on thurs..
yayz..

im quite ok, except having de med is abit groggy on my part.
but still i wanna come online to blog bout something..
its my dream juz now..
when im sick..
the first time in my whole life i dreamt i was dead..
and i was shot dead by desmond..
den its like actually spirits live in de same world..
[as in my dream la]
den wen ppl died they can oni c spirits..
and they can eat too..
i was alone wen im dead..
and its rellie painful, i can feel de pain..
den wen i was walkign ard, kok hsien could actually see me.
so i ask him, n he said he's dead too..
den a while later, pingx joined us..
me n pingz even went for those flea market shopping..

dat goes to show dat even wen we're dead,
we still do things humans do..
weird rite..
and its like dere're some ppl who cant c us,
cos they're humans,
and we're kinda transparent..
but i realise dat when we're dead,
we became happier..
wonder if there's any link or truth behind it..

still i think its a piece of interesting dream
to share wif u guys..
i'll tell u more wen i c ur k.
-pls take care my frens, dun fall sick-

2005-08-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

heya guys..
wanna update u guys on my next week schedule..
so dat ur can plan the programmes nicely..
basically, this fri i cant meet up for de steamboat dinner..
cos i've got 2 sessions of tennis and work till night.
and sat, im free after 4..
and sadly, im darn free on sunday, which ur nv did plan anything..
heez.
i'll b having my test on monday at 5.30..
but well, next week is quite a breeze for me
cos its e-learning for most of my modules..
im off sch for mon to thurs practically..
returning oni on mon for a 1hr paper.
n sunday im free de whole day..
but i can surely meet u guys for dinner n firworks on tue..
i miss fish & co.. *wInkX*
=D
do contact me ok? cos i dunno who to email..
haha..
have fun programming the 3 chief coordinators...
anyway i reallie miss steamboat dinner..mayb c if ur can make it on sat ok?
-miss you-

*kathie katz loves the E.I.G.H.T outings.. muahz..

2005-08-01T12:56:00.000+08:00

i've gotten back all my results for common test le..
CIP is quite badly done among de 3 papers.
i tot econs is aredi quite bad..
who knows the average for cip is actually 25/50..
*gosh
yepx..
updating of my bad scores..
78/100 - biz stats
86/100 - econs
68/100 - CIP

sobz sobz..
this means dat i muz mug harder for my next test dats coming
next monday..

hmm, finally every sunday im off [hopefully]
cos i rellie wan to attend ______
i feel dat it alwiz makes me a better person i guess.

im craving for badminton, cos its been lik ages since i last touch my racket..
basically my life is still a routine..
boring rite?

-kathiex-

2005-07-30T03:58:00.000+08:00

- i love you-
you love me,
we are one big family,
wif a big hugz and a kiss from me to you.
-muackx-
u can say u love me too..

-kathy-

2005-07-30T03:54:00.000+08:00

its nearing 4..
had a nice chat wif meai.
its been a long time.
we're bof busy..
im sleepy...
i love my classmates..
-muackx-

i love minshan, cos i mite b meeting her tmr.
wahaha..im sure she loves me too.
alwiz b frens..

2005-07-28T13:41:00.000+08:00

hEy bA0beIx kAtzKatZ*~

uS iN lEctUrE woRx..sHox sIanZ -yAwNz- shO muAi iS heRe tO giBb eU gUeSt bl0G enTry lOrhz. hEeHeex

muAi bA0beIx kAtzKatZ*~ tOdAy sHo gLaMz n cHiOx wOrX. weAr ThoSe biG biG eaR-RinGs, sO kEwtX neHx.

hEr PeEnK baNgLes aLso sHo NiCe wOrX mE alSo waNx nEhz bUt sO brOke liaOz -SobX sObz-

seriously, im super tired typing in this way. i shall type normally from now onwards. OCOMs boring to the max! thus i started this idea of guest blogging!
lemme introduce myself.
im a GOOD Friendly Understanding Caring & Kind, classmate of Kat (stop wondering, im a guy ok!), we're jus classmates ok
anyways i shall blog more next time!(tht's if i survive after this entry)
seeeyer!

PS: readers can vote for more of me or can flame me at the tagboard. your votes do mean alot. thankyou!

2005-07-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

so lets say i'm quite an active blogger..
so HOLLA to all you who check this space.
you know, i just found out that kat's got nice eyes.
i'm sure you realize that kat wont be saying that on her own post, so yeah, olright, i'm ERIKA!
*insert applause*
lesson 101： do not bypass your tutor or use diagonal communication.

now that thats done, kat's being a darling and making notes fer me..=)
i think we're all a fabulously lucky lot to know katherine.
;)

over and out!

2005-07-26T01:27:00.000+08:00

its 1.27 am now..
im alwiz up till de late nitez..
i noe its bad..
wad to do..
i hate ppl who are irritating..
i wont tell u wad im doin or inform u about my whereabouts
all de time..
pls stop smsing me..
i hope u noe who u r..
im sorry for being so mean.
but everytime i see ur msg,
i feel so angry..
i guess u sud know dat im pissed off..
cos i've been ignoring ur msges n calls..
yupz..
chat wif william tan juz now..
my ex?
haha..
heard dat he's happily attached rite now..
im not having mixed feelings.
im happie happie Happie for him..
haha..
cos i know i did de right thing.
=D
hmm, even thou i feel so lonely..
hahaz.. nvm, single can b a blessing too.
i can b happie oso..
i can guess..
i alwiz guess correctly.
but i hope im wrong..
i seriously hoped im wrong..
Shall cont to mug..
-bored-

2005-07-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

tmr sch starts again.
today met alot of ppl.
supposed to work.
den i saw alvin toh and shun lai outside at lot 1
so i stopped and tok to em for a while..
haha.. din realise they still recognise me.
today is rellie a very tiring day,
cos i din slp properly last nie.
cos of some prankster..
oso yest nite came hm late,
so i slept late at 3 plus..
its de first time i take cab hm by myself
cos its so "early" in de morning.
normally i would juz stay out.
hmm.. den after work,
louis sms me n fetch me hm wif mag too.
came to my hse to take some thing n tok..
b4 i had my dinner at 11..
i weighed myself..
i din thinned down..
haiz.. put on more weight.
wad did i do..
it muz be de oily and fattening supper i had..
some more so late in de nite.
anyw i dyed my hair again.
its copperish brown.
de whole head this time.
some said its nicer..
some couldn even tell de diff.
i hope i dun get back my results tmr.
im scared i cant get my A's
i'll cry real hard.
i'll kp to my promise..
i rellie will do.

2005-07-24T02:22:00.000+08:00

relly tired.
but i cant slp.
cos some a stupid thing.
dinno it'll bug me till now.
even thou i try hard not to think bout it.
urgz..
de rapture concert is quite nice.
esp de ballet.
i love ballet i realise.
imagine myself wif de outfit.. haha..
i worn all those b4..
when im young n performing for my ballet at centre point.
i still got de pics wif de fake wings and wand.
haha.. rellie look so toot n cute den.
de dog wont tell me wad happened.
mayb cos nothin rellie happens..
hmm, rellie muz go to slp le. its tiring.
dun think too much kathy..
slp titex..
hav fun.. =D
i love GOD
i love you

2005-07-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

i've finally ended de heratic common test weeks i've been dreading.
finally its over.. *phew.
well, i wasn tryin to b happie or anything..
cos its time for some fun b4 i embark on my next stupid open book biz stats test,
dats flying to me in another 2 weeks time.
i bet i'll do badly..
hope i can update on my results next week.
hopefully it'll b good news.
heh =)
yupz.. de big day finally arrived for Rapture.
n my sis is attending too.
imagine seeing her. *bleahz.
she wanted to wear de same dress as me n carry de same bag.
urg.. of cos im not goin to do dat n look like a typical replica.
well..
i've rellie got nothing to blog..
no exciting updates in my life..
juz dat i heard my cousin who's 23.
for a guy.. he's getting married this dec.
i got a shock.
so young.
haha..
i oso wan to get married liao.
who wan to marry me?kathy kathy up for sale.
haha.
anyw, i miss my frens rellie loads.
been quite bz these days.
i've no time for myself..
basically i dunno wad m i doin.
juz felt that all my time is gone in a flash.
i rellie treasure my time during feb n jan when im slacking..
n rotting at home,
well.. dere's finally one good news for myself.
haha i've cut off another kg.
Finally after like 4 days?
i've been suffering for like 2 meals a day..
from my normal 6.
well, actually its my normal meals for my depression period.
nahz.. juz jokin. haha
human r juz so weird.
dun wan to eat den dun eat.
eat den pigz out..
i still din grow any taller.
but yes wif my high heels.
haha..

2005-07-18T17:28:00.000+08:00

phew. completed de first n de most tedious paper of all.
business stats.
overall not too difficult.
except for mayb one qn which seems a little tricky.
hope i'll do well den.. =D
heard dat cip would b de hardest topic cos nida memorise
alot of stuffs and de qns they'll ask is totally ridiculous.
wad to do.. study harder lo.
econs is de next paper.
not my best subject, but i'll still study hard to achieve my A's
*hopefully.
received a letter regarding a TOPS programmes from np.
i wonder wads dat asking me to join cca so dat at de end of 3 yr can get de award.
high achievers oh.. haha
im on diet now.
normally my meals goes like this...
3 proper meals per day..
including fast food, big meals dat made me full.
plus 2 snacks, including cheese cake which is extremely fattening,
and tibits.. in addition to de ramily burger i hav for supper every night.
that goes to explain de 4 kgs where it came from.
so today my meal would b,
no breakfast, no lunch..
juz 3 oreo cookies and a cup of milk
plus my dinner later..
hope i can cut down on my calories..
its quite obvious im fatten up cos ppl do says so..
argz.
took a nice nap juz now aftre being drenched in de dumb rain.
im falling sick..
gonna mug dead into de nitex..
cos i love studying during de nite..
can focus n conc much much better..

2005-07-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

juz returned from minshan's hse after a day of studying.
hmm, i got study hor..
min shan kp saying im distracted..
im juz shocked after hearing some news ma..
anyw hope cindy is much better now..
*prAys hard for her*
gonna spend my nite and tmr studying hard again..
i wanna get my AD's u know..
even thou now i think its kinda hard,
but i've to bring some good news to wash away all de bad luck..
hopefully i'll get reallie good results..
im so scared..
muz wish me good luck on mon hor..
haha.. so *bhb
next week is rapture liao..
but dun hav de mood cos my common test is so near..
and it doesn seem as exciting as last yr..
dunno why lost dat sense of feeling.
mayb its de companion dat counts..
i'll get big flowers for jackie..
he'll be delirious.. yayz..

2005-07-16T19:34:00.000+08:00

my gosh, its so so hard to study for the upcoming CIP test..
for those who thinks that its community involvement programme,
u're wrong..
its computing la..
i dunno how to study for it, so basically i juz breeze thru the notes..
foreseeing wad de qns will b like wif 10 mcqs and open ended..
isn it something quite like common sense?
its quite dumb n felt so stupid to memorise y we muz learn pc and stuffs..
argz.. nvm, im sure i'll scrape thru it wonderfully..
hehz.

2005-07-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

i guess im not very nice..
cos the world im living in isn very nice either. =(

2005-07-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

i've just finished making a strawberry cheesecake for my own comsumption.
i've been working so hard these few weeks, its time for some relaxation
before starting to mug hard for the common test again liao.
suddenly feel so sick...
went to tan at my rooftop,
i know thats a stupid idea..
and there's sun when its raining..
so no wonder i will get sick..
argz..
nvm, im sure after eating my super cheesecake later[ currently refrigerating in my fridge]
i'll become super healthy again.. hahaz..
hmm, i miss studying wif pingz..
de times wen we go Mac to mug, rem?
haiz.. nvm, we'll get the chance this thurs n fri..
hahaha.. seems like im on hols this week..
well, y does evenyone seems to ask me de same qn.
even my supervisor.
anyw i've gotten energy's latest album wif their autographs on it.
YES! yay.. i miss ady n his songs.. kinda sad..
yan lei de wei dao..
n a new song from fir, 1 of de guy, xiao shi.. very nice..!!!

2005-07-07T13:24:00.000+08:00

okiz. i can blog bout my upcoming life now..
hehz..
as mentioned before, my common test is fast approaching..
so that goes to mean that i hav to start mugging hard if i want to get my ADs..
yayz.. pray hard for me i'll get that k..
heh..
anyw i was saying, that day i went to west mall tomeet min shan and sharon.
we were shopping ard wen this super duper cute and huge huggable bear that attracted me..
and i SWEAR that im goin to get that for myself..
well, but im gonna wait for some nice occasions such as national day or wadever.
hahaha.. lame..
i wanna watch movie!!
i havn watch any since 3 or 4 weeks le leh..
im deprived of my movies.. argz..
butnvm, im gonna watch ALOT LIKE LOVE tmr wif pingz.
at EMPRESS of cos..
hahaha.. i miss the kfc..
*yum yum*

2005-07-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

er hem..
im supposed to blog bout cip in here..
frankly speaking, i rellie have a very faint idea what im supposed to do for the dream weaver cos its totally out of my knowledge.
i only understand how to do it through the instructions downloaded from mel...
sobz sobz..
and im supposed to complete it by july..
Oh my God..
gues i rellei need to buck up after the common tetst on my cip le..
yayz..

2005-07-05T10:25:00.000+08:00

heyo, im in sch now. heh..
hmm later im goin out wif min shan and sharon to west mall.
im sho super excited cos i guess its been ages since i last catch up wif em since the hols..
its been months le ba..
well, we're sure gonna gossip again since im not coming to sch tmr.
hmm yest juz managed to sign up for my basic theory test.
but unlucky kathie gotta wait for 2 months b4 i can take de test.
sobz sobx..
hmm wanna watch "alot like love" on friday de..
but sajc is having its college day, so mayb pingx cant meet up..
well, im looking forward to dat, havn been to de movies for some time..
im busy pingx's busy, everyone's busy..
anyway, take care my girls..

2005-07-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

im at amy's hse now..
havign steamboat for dinner.
mayb later goin to catch a nice late night movie.
too lazy and tir to go to town, so we'll just hang ard here..
its been a long time since we had a gathering.
they're singing karaoke now. heh.. n im inside the room.
i feel so so tire.
well,im taking a break real soon. n i can rest more now..
im so happie. Im finally having a life now. yayz..
today i saw zhao yuan n his gf wen im on de bus, they looked so happie.
im not jealous or wad, juz felt kinda happie for em.
its good to had found someone close to ur heart and enjoy these small little things..
its kinda hard for me to find..
setting up lots of criterias. heh..
not too desperate for one too. thou cant help feelign jealous.
i nid the chemistry, and that feeling again.
ok gonna enjoy myself now..
LBNL, to all my frens in sajc, now that BT 2 has ended,
play hard for a week bfore mugging hard again k.
i miss u guys.

2005-06-29T10:07:00.000+08:00

2 more weeks to common test le.
its time to mug hard liao..
hmm. been rellie busy lately,
always sleeping in the early wee hours of the night.
and waking up early next day for lessons.
all my dark n deep eye bags r very obvious le..
*sobzsobz*
im tire tire tire.
i havn been meetin my frens for a long long long time.
i miss them sho much..
i dun even have time for myself.
its good oso.. =)
anyway, all my frens are having BT 2 now.
received my sweetie msg?
hmm, muz jia you k?
work hard and im sure u guys will reap good results de..
GAMBATE ok?
-miss u-

2005-06-27T11:21:00.000+08:00

look at the lyrics of this song..
hav a strong feeling towards it..
sometimes it's useful to console urself..
qi shi wo mei na me ai ta..
having fish n chips in sch now.. haha..
i'll get he song up asap.

2005-06-27T11:16:00.000+08:00

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
便有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下

是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大

幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱

他没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话你就放得下

2005-06-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

i wanna scream to the world how much i love u guys..
tmr we're going to have ourgathering and dinner at fish & co.
im looking forward to it.. really..

anyway, i juz wants friends onli.. nothin more at this point of time..
stop irritating me le..

2005-06-22T09:56:00.000+08:00

heh.. havn been blogging for long.
later im goin to eat cheese prata again at bukit timah.
The prata is rellie very very nice..
hmm, im so indecisive, dunno whether to go n hav fish and co.
argz..
i woke up late for sch for 3 days in a row n my daddy gotta fetch me
to sch.. and the jam is so super congested with so many cars..
yup yupz, i sud rellie find time to go apply for my basic theory test
and start on my car learning journey in case i need to nid a long
time to pass.. *tsK tsK*
yupz, im in lect now..
im alwiz sho notti.. =)
haha.. i knew one guy who looks so much like zhe bin..
so many ppl date me go watch initial-d .. hahaha..
haiz..nida do hmk again.. jia you..
i'll c my a51 freaks after ur block test 2 k!
study hard oh..
i'll try to get my tag board up again soon..
sorry for being so "unfriendly" as quoted by zhe bin..
take care.. miss u guys alot.. muackx.

2005-06-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

PISCES MAN > > > > >
He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional.
He can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood,
and less than few hours at work he can be very moody.
He does not understand things or try to understand things easily.
If you notice him carefully, you will notice what kind of moods he is in.
He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed.
His normal gestures mean he always look at other people faults,
but he will not talk about it.
He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell you what you are thinking about.
> > > >He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves.
They are his important secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you know.
He is not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society.
Wealth does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as well he thinks money is not something that will last.
He could be very careless about his future.
He does not like to fight against all odds,
but instead following the stream and make life easier.
Sometimes because he likes to take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future.
He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character.
He hates rules and regulations.
He will never look down on people.
He is a polite guy and can be very aggressive when he is mad.
He loves to think that he lives in a beautiful world and surround by nice people,
so if he finds his world is cruel and not what he expects,
he will live in his world instead. His other charm is that >
he is a funny guy, and it is his real weapon.
> >He can tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke.
Even when he is sad, he still has that funny face,
so you could hardly tell if he is mad or depress.
He likes to hide his feeling and help other people especially those who need friend or lonely.
He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want.
He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail.
He can determine to make it work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with other important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity.
> > > >He can be happy and content by himself.
What he think is important is not "Love" ,
but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for you.
He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener.
When he is with you, he wants to be happy.
He understand his partner's emotional.
He likes to take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be alone, try not to disturb him. He is a sensitive, quiet , shy and easily hurt.
He wants to feel worthy. He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy,
and if he feels jealous he will hide it.
He has many friends of both sex, and he care about his friends.
> > > >He likes to have lots of friends, so you can not get jealous or else you will loose him. He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty woman walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact. When he is lonely or feeling sad,
be close to comfort him. He does not like to take advice,
so if you want him to listen or to follow your advice, you have to act as a good sample for him first. He likes a cheery and a smart woman.
If you treat him like he is your special person,
then he will be that special person for you.
He will trust you if he is in love,
but try not to over doing it and spoil him too much.
You have to know yourself worth all the time too.

2005-06-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

Busy busy busy busy..
im really very busy..
computing is really hard for a pc idiot like me..
nida put in extra efforts..

2005-06-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

God of Life(May 3 to June 16)
The hawk-headed god rules a fickle sign - those born under it have roving eyes and a passionate nature. Life for them is finding a series of Mr/Ms Rights, and they have no trouble doing it. For true romantic happiness, you need a very strong, steady type of man/woman who can tame your restless spirit and still give you the excitement you crave.

2005-06-21T23:18:00.001+08:00

2005-06-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

2005-06-18T00:18:00.000+08:00

listen to this song
wo men, by energy..
ady's last album..
i rellie miss his voice..
he sings rellie well, esp ballads..
i hope his back injuries will get better soon.

their last album final fantasy is rellie sad..
if u listen hard to the lyrics..
its very meaningful..

im goin to study now.. nitex..

2005-06-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

When a girl looks down,
It means shes uncomfortable.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full ofquestions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after afew seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says "I love you",
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a GIRL says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that

When a GIRL is jealous about other people seeing you more than she does,
its because she loves you and misses you so much

2005-06-13T20:47:00.000+08:00

i came hm early upon my mum's request cos we're goin out for dinner..
i dinno wad's de occasion, thinking mayb we're goin out wif others or ?
den while im walking hm, i realised its my mummy's burfday!
*muACKX* happie 44th burfday!
mayb i'll get her smthg tmr..
had a sumptous meal of crabs n fish and stuffs..
4 ppl eating over a hundred bucks...gosh..
n i ate lik a pig..
n *grInZ* i've gained some kilos thanks to dat..
had been eating alot lately..
mayb cos i've freed my mind from doin much thinking..
hmm, juz asked my classmates shane for de pokemon game,
guess i'll b bz wif dat game for at least a few months..
pokemon very childish meh.. its so cute wad..
juz realise dat sheng shong supermarket sell rellie cheap vodka.
haha.. min shan, get wad i mean? =) *wInkX*
yay, its de durian season n i've got lotsa durians at hm..
im becoming a freak.. really..
i think i mite grow out of my clothes..
i guess i feel fat.. mayb JUZ mayb its time to diet..
okiz.. im gonna do my revision now..
lets work hard for our studies everyone..
Gambate oh! =)

2005-06-13T09:34:00.000+08:00

if ever u say a dumbo standing at de bus stop outside bb park on fri afternoon,
dats me!
stupid n bored me singing, marching,shouting,walking,screaming,dancing,
juz to wait for my bus..
n i waited for 30 min for de dumb bus..
unucky me got onto de bus n after 10 min, it broke down along bukit timah road...
*sobz sobz*

went to causeway point to hav my dinner yest wif pingz n kok..
bot a nicey nicey high heel shoes which made me look tall!
n went to hav supper wif my family.
reached home late..
watched iron ladies late into de nite..
n finally revised my lect notes..
slept at 2..
*hugz my bolster titex*

2005-06-10T00:20:00.000+08:00

i eat wen im hungry,
i sleep wen im really tire..
i feel like im a sleepyhead..
i diet wen i feel im fat..
now im goin to mug cos i feel so guilty..

"love thy neighbour as thyself"

2005-06-08T11:25:00.000+08:00

this is my new blog..
nice??
pls do say so..
wanted a cheery n bright background de..
btu cant find any i like..
so i settled on this pic thou its rather sad..
but still its nice!

this is a new beginning..
im determined!

i had a wonderful day yest..
thou de movie wasn exactly to my liking..
my bf is type b..
watch out for mr n mrs smith..
think its gonna b nicer..

i guess i'll b so busy.
having to juggle work n studies too.
n im having 2 jobs..
im a super kathie =)
at least my life is filled wif things to do..
wont b wasting my time sleeping n pigging..

anyway, the cheesecake i made is really nice.
its edible ok..
n it looks quite professional oso hor..
everyone lets gambate.. =)

2005-06-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

Message: Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind. If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail forthere are ups & downs in feelings. Girls are thereto be loved, not toyed around.Love her for who she is. Don't even think aboutchanging any bit about her. 6 billion people in thisworld & 6 billion different personalities.She's special & she will stay that way. Youchange any part of her, you'll change her forever.Don't substitute her for anyone else, she isjust unique in her own ways.Love her whole-heartedly. She sacrificed alot for you so you'd better really treasure her. Shecould have dated a so much more dashing guy intown but she chose you because she loves you.So do not play with her.Like another girl while you're in a relationship? Then it's time you remain singlefor a while. Don't go around breaking girls' hearts,it's the most selfish thing to do.Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do thesame.Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling".How would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, one is enough.Socialise only when you're single. You socialise &flirt around to get the girl of your dreams. Whenshe's already yours, don't ask for more.It never kills to be romantic. Be flexible. Getting that diamond ring isn't the onlygift for her. Be realistic, she's human & shelives lifejust like you. Something sweet & simple alwaysget the job done.Never promise her that you'll love her foreverbecause your forever might end the next day. Love her as if each day is the last.It isn't good being too well-known to the oppositesex too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity.Remember, INSECURITY.Promise her & make sure you never break thepromise. Swear to her & make sure you live up to your word. Pledge your love to her & her alone.Loving her is giving her your heart to break it buttrusting her not to. Same goes for her, giving u herheart means allowing u to break it and trusting unot to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it. Should'nt you do the same thing as well?That's love.Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cryher heart out & carry on living as per normal, she'ddie.Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don'tleave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love her till old age, love her till death. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly lovedher.She chose you because she believes that you can fulfil your promise. Win her heart & loveher.