hav i picked up the pieces?
when i've just realised and understood dat sometimes no matter how hard i try
things wouldn just change for my sake..
im really disappointed..
really.




life hasn been much better or worse for me. wad else can b worse?
i cant think of any..
but im reallie glad dat im goin off for a camp this sat at east coast park.
wif my rellie nice frens and wif everything planned out..
yay.. i love u guys.. muackx.

and sunday im gonna celebrate min shan's burfday..
wow im really busy these few weeks..
n next week im off for another 4 days 3 nights camp!
yayz. time to make more new frens n stop being such an anti social
and miserable freak!

i love pingz, love min shan, love wai cheng for my being my support late at nite wen
i couldn slp and pei me sms and to stop me from crying n stuffs..
thanks.. muackz..
i know i'll go haywire in the nite. i hav no idea y..




18th april
went for lunch wif pingz and min shan at seah imm food centre, [m I right]
and returned back to sa to watch soccer match..
I think its super painful and tiring..
I feel so bad for them..
Lucky they won..
JIA YOU..
Sent min shan hm and rot on the bus home..
Crying on the bus is very common le, isn it?



19th april
went back sa to get my leaving certificate and chinese result slip.
Attended pe lessons wif the class..
I love 04a51..
Met boo at harbourfront for yoshinoya..
Talked and gossiped as usual.
Returned to lot one void deck wif pingz pingz to bitch some more..
Had a fun day bitching still..
At least we had a talk.. I feel much better..


20th april
went back to work.. sianz.





21th april
went to cut my hair again, and visited ailing..
she’s much much better now.. I miss her so much..
I hope she’ll recover all very well soon..
Met wai cheng at clementi to go town.
Shop for some of his stuffs..
Sat at paragon’s coffee club express to talk for hours..
Had nice lemoney cheesecake.
I rem min shan say she’ll make one for me on my burfday..
I love her to bits..
And pingz will buy another cheesecake for me..
I love pingz..
I love cheesecake, I love to share em..





22th april
went out wif my dearie 04a51 classmates to town
for something impt. To shop. Haha..
had dinner at scotts food court.
Had thai food which taste reallie bad.
Cos its all bean sprouts..
Den went to far east to take neo prints..
Its super nice wif all our cute n prettie face..
Really its nice..
Went ard shopping the whole stretch of road
trying to find nice n prettie stuffs
and I guess our legs turn sore and sour after oni
3 hours of walking.
Super duper tire..
Return to lot 1 to talk wif pingz somemore.
Too much thingy for us to talk bout liao..
Thru these talks den I realise dat I’ve missed out so much
So much of the past..
Which I din came across and realise..
N to think I only knew about it now.
And now, I wonder,
Will things ever be the same if I know more of wad sud b told?
Becos I know I’ll react very differently.




i hate my life..
i hate myself..




yi ran shi peng you.. by yu heng..
came across this song once and i immediately love it.

16th april
went out with pingz,dal,kok hsien,mavis,amy,lai lai..
ate lunch at lot 1..
rem zhe bin says we're lot 1 queens..
had to go down to expo to support SAJC's dancers esp jackie
for the dance works 2005
jackie had stitches on his chin.
i can see its very very painful..
i feel so pain for him,
and the stitches is blue in colour.
b4 going down to expo, we went to town
to get something for pingx' "special" fren.
walked ard for a while b4 we decided to leave for expo.
reached at ard 5 but it only starts at 6.
and so we exhibit wad the few of us are good at.
"ROT", "PHOTO TAKING"..
took the tix from jackie.
but the dance oni started at 7..
so many ppl are late..
i feel like screaming into their face.
but we had fun..
criticising and enjoying everything dat we thought of.
sneaked away after all the dance.
din wait for the results.
all of us are hungry..
went all the way back to the west side for dinner.
settled at lot 1's prominent 24hrs coffee house
for dinner.
its aredi 930 wen we reached lot 1 and had dinner.
had a great and delicious dinner.
we left at 1030. and bid each other farewell.
i hate saying goodbye..
me n pingz doesn feel like goin hm,
so lot 1 queens cont to rot at interchange
till the last bus comes along nearing 12.
i love talking to pingx..
i love telling her stories n secrets..
its late i know, but i juz love the late nights
and the dark sky.
its so dark n mysterious, yet lonely.

lucky i've got wai cheng to kp me smsing till 3 plus,
and i finally succumb to the ZZz monster..
thanks alot. =)

energy gonna disband le..
ady hurt his back badly.
i left william for ady..
now they gonna disband le.
i know im so childish..
im sorry..
but i know i did the right thing.
cos i know that isn love.
dat's juz a game i played wen im young..
but at least i did u a justice..
n luckily we're still frens.. =)
tahnks for ur umbrella in the storm!

this is a long post..
juz changed my hamster's cage and cleaned up for em.
rotting at home de whole day..
gonna post nice photos up at frendster.

tmr im goin to pon work.
im going back..
juz trying to make some amendments.
im sorry.
mayb u wont b happie.
not like the past..
wen u'll be super duper glad and come to hug me..
im still doing silly things.




情人节的前一天
他离开你身边只剩下你无止境的想念*
那一夜我陪着你
你哭了一整夜你是否知道
我对他(也)一样很想念
直到有一天
我和他碰面在那间
我们常去的咖啡店才知道
有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间 隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂可是你 你怎么说 你知道后是不是从此避开我OH 我一样难过 多希望我们不曾相识过 *Repeat * 才知道 有些感受 我和他谁都不曾说出口我们都是最好的朋友 谁会有勇气去开口不再哭 不再难过 我们还有好大好大的天空 Oh故事的最后 我们都不曾失去过 什么我们依然是朋友 Wu




情人节的前一天
他离开你身边只剩下你无止境的想念*
那一夜我陪着你
你哭了一整夜你是否知道
我对他(也)一样很想念
直到有一天
我和他碰面在那间
我们常去的咖啡店才知道
有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间 隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂可是你 你怎么说 你知道后是不是从此避开我OH 我一样难过 多希望我们不曾相识过 *Repeat * 才知道 有些感受 我和他谁都不曾说出口我们都是最好的朋友 谁会有勇气去开口不再哭 不再难过 我们还有好大好大的天空 Oh故事的最后 我们都不曾失去过 什么我们依然是朋友 Wu




hmm, today went for matriculation and was kinda persuaded to join the FOC camp.
hmm but NP looks and sounds fun.. met some ppl whom i knew today..
and the peeps dere are nice too.

i had lunch wif jie sung and after dat went to causeway,
bumming into lai and amy coincidentally..
ahha i miss em!

and so i went to work after dat.. not much fun too..
and one customer say i cutez wor..
wahahaha..
he's so terence yu lor..
dame kind of face same kind of talking pattern..
im meetin them tmr. yayz..
c you guys tmr.. muackz





im super sad right now.
i'm really in a depressed mood right now.
because my hair was cut real short.
the ponytail doesn looks like a pony tail to me.
it just looks like a small chunk of butt out of a black mess..
its a diasaster..

please dun look at me because i think i'll look really terrible.
pingz said this colour is better than the previous one.
cos i wanna get rid of that "ah lian" lookx.
ireally look like one?
please dont make me sad again..

isn there any other things that can make me happie?
and looks forward to?
probably jux meeting up wif frens dat is.
at least i wont b lonely and start thinking of stupid things.
making myself vulnerable all over again..

i'll lead a happier life i suppose..
since you are doin so fine w/o any problems..
it makes me really wonder..
is this true?
or my understanding of you is not deep enough.
you always thought so..
i just want to know the true side..
i thought the truth is alwiz wad i've always thought to be..
but you always tell me the opposite,
in the end only to realise that im still right after all.
do i still take this gamble, a risk?
im already prepared to lose everything..
its because i put you on top of everything else in the world now.

i realised after doing so many things, im really tire..
tire of all these.. i did all things only to faced upon sarcastic and irritated remarks..
y? can anyone tell me the truth?
it cannot be told, and can only be felt..
you will only know it when your heart breaks..

hmm, min shan's burfday is coming, wad sud i get for her?
haha a boyfriend~ yayz..
im your girlfriend.. =)

im pingz pingz best friend.. yayz.
muahz..




borEd~
yes, kathie kat is borEd~
juz adopted 2 little cutie hamsters..

does kindness really begets kindness in return?
i think that's too much to ask for isnt it?

its hard. i know its hard..
im in no position to give any advice too.
pray that you wont live in misery anymore.
you did it willingly,
but she'll nv appreciates ur gesture.
its cruel..
no one said life isn cruel..

i believe that if its dere, it'll be there.
true love never goes away.
if its meant to be, it'll be..

if only dreams could b fufilled in reality.
if it can never be,
i wished just now i've never woken up.

yangsen kor, louis kor n waicheng didi will be there..
i'll return you the once happie kat one day..
and pingz, daldal, kokie, jackie, laiz, amy, huiling..
kathie kat loves you guys..
min shan, sharon, meng hui,jiesung,fiona,ailing...
i hope i can spend more time wif u..muahz..
richard.
kathie kat will always love you and be there waiting,
supporting whatever decision you make.
even if it means you dun care anymore..


okix. im goin off to work..
=(




today i witness an accident.
the deceased is less den 2m away from me.
he's covered in blood.
he's a motorcyclist.
he's dead..

what if something happened to me?
i havn hug him good bye.
i havn tell him how much i missed him.
havn do so many many things..
but i cant do all these..

the furthest distance in the world is wen he is right there
and yet you know you can never have them..





qian nian zi lian.. nice song by FIR..

kathie kathie kat was crying after watching passion of christ and couldn stop crying for hours after that..
its so torturous..

makes me feel like not living anymore..
dere is still so long to go..
im quite sick and tire of life.

thanks min shan for talking to me..
im blogging and crying now.
its hard for me not to cry..
i tried so hard for the past few months..
i tried.

how do i get out of this phrase of my life?
i juz wanna live a life w/o any worries, w/o much thinking.
is dere any potion, or can i juz suffer from a concussion,
and hav ammesia..

all i wished for is juz a nice and sweet life..
this is living hell..
heaven seems so far away from me.
happiness seem so distant away..
keeping everything to myself n being vulnerable in front of myself..
im afraid i cant take it anymore..

i really cannot take it anymore..




watched the exorcist yest nite from 11pm to 1am in my parents room. im too freaked out to watch alone cos its the older movie version de.. freaked the hell out of me.. n i switched on all de lights, ran de fastest up to my bed room n slam de door. i took out my bible and amulet and stuffs and hugged so tightly without opening my eyes..
at 116am, my phone went beeping, so late in the night le, who'll msg me lah.. freaked me out..
lucky its oni wai cheng..

lucky got he pei me msg till fall asleep.. if not i rellie hav no idea who to call up at such late hours of the nite..
and today went to meet min shan n sharon to pass them history notes..
den talked for a while n we went home..
and tonight, i've got the passion of christ to kp me company again.. haha
hope i wont b too freaked out by the violent scenes..

tmr sas goin to sajc for sports day.. weird mun jun telling me all dat..
monkey see monkey do..






watched "house of fury" today.. its a nice show.. i simply loved gillian's fighting.. its so beautiful n chic!
i love dalphanie and pingx..
we talked bout our future.. our cohabiting together in an apartment..
who n who sharing rooms tog, playing bridge at nitex, ordering pizzas for dinner all de time..
watching movies together, sleeping together, camp together, practically doing everything together, dat means brushing together oso.

im angry.. why do some people oni regret after they did something unforgivable or somethings which can never b amended? why do they realise that they sud treat everyone better after losing some precious things reality and feel guilty after dat?since having chose to do dat in the first place, why feel guilty?
why can some people be so unfeeling and cruel towards their loved ones. to hurt them and yet continue to hurt them, thinking that they're actually not.
why does god created us this way?
always letting us wait for him to lead us?
why does some people chose to escape from reality and live in a world of their own..
not wanting to accept the facts..
trying hard to forget and live a better life, seeking happiness,
only to realise that its impossible to let go..

they say true love is seeing your loved ones happie, finding their happiness..
but, without you wif ur loved ones together, can you still be happie for them?
the answer is no..
you'll onli b happie for him/her when you're only friends..
otherwise, you'll be sad and disappointed..
not being able to share their happiness and sadness..
so all things bout happiness is shit..
dump it into the toilet bowl and flush it down..

alwiz tell your loved ones u love them,
for they are the only true happiness in one's life..

i'll only remember the love,
all the hurt i've dump them all..

dun be so selfish.. you only get to live once..
alwiz treat tomorrow as if its the end of the world.
remember to love them all the time..
tell them u love them, or you'll nv get the chance again..

"i love you!"




i juz hate some ppl who acts as if they care when they doesn care at all.. please stop acting in front of me.. even thou we're once pri sch mates, u dun hav to tok to me.. im not honored or wad.. please get out of my sight..
today i went back to sa for a while.. and had pe wif my class. i dun exactly love pe.. but today im an important person cos im MR HO's personal secretary..im so honored! haha.. he's rellie a super duper nice teacher i've ever met in my life.. and i took pics wif him oh.. he asked me if i missed pe, well, i kinda miss de J1 fun times, but not those studying times.. haha.. i esp miss the 1st 3 months.. i miss xiao hui and yan xi.. well, went to JEc after dat and had MAc.. nothin can make me stop eating mAc even aft them watching de super size me.. had a nice talking session wif min shan, sharon and pingz pingz.. i guess pingz rellie miss me alot.. she's seeing me like 5 times a week? haha.. n i dreamt of her last nite eh.. happie?
juz now wen im walking along dat dark stretch of path on my way home i noticed some shadows behind me lah, im so super scared and i screamed! haha.. but wen i turned behind, its oni the leaves and the dumb trees.. scare the hell out of me.. its so dark.. but nvm i liked the atmosphere.. eekz, juz pray i wont bum into the shadows again.. =)





im so proud of kathie.. she's such a brave gal these few days.. jia you!
she did all the things she had to do except to think.. =)




He's the one..


LADIES...
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding
you of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,
"...that's her.."


GUYS...
Find a girl who calls you immature in that affectionate
way instead of hot or sexy,
who can't stand it when you hang up on her and calls right back,
who would sit there for hours looking into your eyes,
who doesn't care what you look like,
but what's inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes and kisses you,
Wants to be with you in public,
even if you wear those old grass stained and ripped pants
with the bleached jersey like always,
Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder
of your happiness and joy,
who makes you smiles just by knowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you give piggy back rides to in public
and she still is in view of her friends,
while she gets off and you hear her go:
"you're the one for me, for always"

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