im sho sho happie.. today i had a long gossip and talk session wif pingz pingz..
we met at queensway shopping centre at ard 230 and talked all the way till 9 plus.. its raining la.
and i took my umbrella.. and dat dumb no direction gal alight at the wrong bus stop..
i almost wanted to strangle her..she rellie has no sense of direction lor.
den we walked ard queensway looking for the bag i wanted to find to no avail..
so we stopped at mac for a short break and to eat and talked lah..
thou we meet up quite often, but dunno why we still got so much things to talked bout..
den we took 61 to west mall cos we were too lazy to change bus..
so we took all the way and talked all the way to west mall..
den we go n find our fav chocs to eat and den the wu liao 2 of us took 985 to lot 1 again..
our favourite hangout.. haha
we talked bout so much lah.. and oni to realise some things.. and some ppl.. haiz..
wad a sad world.. but we saw real friendship..
we went to the library at lot 1.. haha, we're very studious de hor.. pretending to read, but we're actually talking lah.. and soon its time to go off cos the librarian is looking at us.. mayb we talked too loud?
so we went down to food court, but dere's a big crowd, so we decided to go to our secret void deck to eat.. haha..
so we bot our dinner and went straight to the void deck where we stayed for 2 hours plus
we were super full lah.. thou the food not very nice.. but we talked n talked and talked..
i think ppl muz hav felt weird seeing the 2 of us sitting dere so late le.. weird ppl
i had so much fun talking, cos we exchanged alot of "news" and our opinions..
and we discussed so many topics lah.. and telling pingz so much stuff, i felt much much beta..
and we met 2 weirdo.. asking for no.
and i laughed wen pingz tell him, ni ke yi zou kai mah..
so he gave me his fren's no. and said msg him wen u're free ok..
haha.. he said he's not a bad guy..
pls lor, which bad guy will admit he's a bad guy.. DUMB..
and my mama tell me not to give any strangers no. and dun talked to strangers wor..
his mother nv teach him arh..
but nvm, we 2 still had fun.. trying to take our dunno why ugly pics..
and so, its turning quite late le, and pingz got sch, so we had to say bye bye..
hmm, miss her so much.. but, we're gonna meet up again soon..
=) muackx..








hmm, i finally found yi shi de mei hao,and add it into my blog.. its nice.. one of my new fav songs.. sing le will cry de eh..
in these few months, i realise the importance of friends and their existence proved to b y im still carrying on today..w/o them, i nv knew if i could stand the loneliness wen im at home and not being in sch.. 6 whole months not being to sch le.. guess how hard is it..
yesterday, one of my dad's friend commited suicide and passed away..so sudden and my dad went to his house to discuss with a few "brothers" about the matter but he's still not update me yet..
heard dat he died of carbon monoxide poisoning..
i dun want to live in the past anymore.. i want the old kathie back.. the one w/o any worries, whole day jumping n bubbling ard..
its hard to commit suicide, i dun hav the courage to do it..
im sure wif pingz, dal, kok hsien, jackie, laiz, amy, sharon, jie sung, min shan, meng hui and all u guys out dere.. life will become a better one..
i cant stand loneliness, so im sorry if im nagging or irritating too much..
sorrie sorrie..




Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the Surgeon come out of the
operating room. She said: How is my little boy? Is he going to be
O.K.? "When can I see him?"
The Surgeon said, "I'm sorry, we did all we could."
Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer, doesn't GOD care
any more? GOD, where were you when my son needed you?"
The Surgeon said, "One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes
to let you spend time with your son's remains before it is
transported to the university."
Sally asked that the nurse stay with her while she said good-bye
to her son. Sally ran her fingers through his thick red curly hair.
The nurse said, "Would you like a lock of his hair?" Sally nodded
yes. The nurse cut a lock of his hair and put it in a plastic bag
and handed it to Sally.
Sally said, "It was Jimmy's idea to give his body to the university for study.
He said it might help somebody else,"and
that is what he wanted.
I said, No at first, but Jimmy said, "Mom I won't be using it
after I die, maybe it will help some other little boy to be able
to spend one more day with his mother."
Sally said, "My Jimmy had a heart of Gold, always thinking of
someone else and always wanting to help others if he could."
Sally walked out of the Children's Hospital for the last time
now, after spending most of the last 6 months there.
She sat the bag with Jimmy's things in it on the seat beside of
her in the car. The drive home was hard and it was even harder to
go into an empty house.
She took the bag to Jimmy's room and started placing the model
cars and things back in his room exactly where he always kept
them. She laid down across his bed and cried herself to sleep
holding his pillow.
Sally woke up about midnight and laying beside of her on the bed,
was a letter folded up. She opened the letter, it said:
Dear Mom:
I know you're going to miss me, but don't think that I will ever
forget you or stop loving you because I'm not around to say I
LOVE YOU. I'll think of you every day Mom and I'll love you even
more each day. Someday we will see each other again. If you want
to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, he can have my
room and my old stuff to play with. If you decide to get a girl
instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things as us boys
do, so you will have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like. Don't
be sad when you think about me, this is really a great place.
Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me
around some, but it will take a long time to see everything here.
The angels are so friendly, and I love to watch them fly. Jesus
doesn't look like any of the pictures I saw of Him, but I knew it
was Him as soon as I saw Him.
Jesus took me to see GOD! And guess what Mom? I got to sit on
GOD'S knee and talk to Him like I was somebody important. I told
GOD that I wanted to write you a letter and tell you good-bye and
everything, but I knew that wasn't allowed. God handed me some
paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think
Gabriel is the name of the angel that is going to drop this
letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one
of the questions you asked Him about... Where was He when I
needed him?
God said, "The same place He was when Jesus was on the cross. He
was right there, as He always is with all His children." Oh, by
the way Mom, nobody else can see what is written on this paper
but you. To everyone else, it looks like a blank piece of paper.
I have to give God His pen back now, He has some more names to
write in the Book Of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with
Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great. I almost
forgot to let you know - Now I don't hurt anymore, the cancer is
all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and
God couldn't stand to see me suffer the pain either, so He sent
The Angel of Mercy to get me.
Special Delivery!
Signed with love from:

God &Jesus &Me.





today i forced myself to walk up at 915am cos there's a badminton session at cck sports hall wif kok hsien and dal.. its so tiring lah..dun hav the strength to play. but its been so so long since we 3 got the time to arrange for this session.. and so, we played for 2 hours. juz the 3 odd of us.. so we played 2 against 1, taking turns.. din know dat kok hsien so li hai.. trach me and dal dal.. but we nv zi bao zi qi wor.. heez, we're the jue shi shuang jiao.. dunno wad crapz.. and we're all very tire after playing i guess..but we still met up wif pingz pingz to go lot 1 to catch a movie.. which is the eye 10. actually i wanna watch hitch de lor. but lot 1 dun hav.

i forgot to bring my ezilink, and got my mum to deliver it for me and so good, she sent us to lot 1.. haha..
its been rellie a long long time since i last stepped into the cinema.. the weird feeling is still dere, but i guess, wif the effort i put in to overcome this, i'll succeed, esp wen its pingz n me watching horror.. haha
the eye 10 is more of a comedy lah.. kp luffing and less of screaming. but of the sneaks got 2 is pretty scary de..
im gonna catch it wen its out. got 1 is korean de i think.

yupz, and we went to pizza hut for our lunch.. we ordered the hawaiian and the chicken wan lah.. and its super cheesy.. but i love it.. cheese wor..reminds me of pasta mania and the times wen we go harbour front for pasta..
its so long ago le..so so long..time flies so fast..
today is the 4th month le.. yupz..
i do everything everyday.. except to think.. dats y im feeling much beta..
but once i start to think, i'll cry man.. aiyoz..
i shant b a cry baby anymore..
i've heard enuff..
mayb JL is right, i sud listen to him right from the start..
but im too naive..
hope i'll grow up.. =)




hmm, i keep listening to the song dao dai by jay in his live concert de.. and listened hard to his lyrics..
are most guys so cold blooded? he's rite..
his changed lyrics goes lik this. er ni dui wo de qi dai, bei wo yi ci ci suai huai, yi jing sui cheng tai duo kuai, yao ze me pin chou gen cong lai..

nvm, i dun hate jay, he has his way of doing things. that is his business..
as long as he's not guilt stricken..

hmm.. i receive my cpf letter from the govt.. and the dumb govt sent it to my childhood kampong lah..
at jalan bahar de.. its like donkey yrs ago wen im less den 3 yrs old? haha.. omg..




today is a tiring day.. very very tiring leh. i feel like sleeping le. but dere's still so many things going on in my mind. Actually everything is over le, but y do i still think bout it? why does it still lingers in my head?
today went to work, n felt so sleepy.. and im so looking forward to meeting up wif pingz, hsienz, jackie, dal, lai, amy and mavis.. so i waited n waited till the time comes.. n yes! we met up at plaza singapura starbucks. and laiz got her hair rebonded too.. n we all look as pretty as ever.. [consoling ourselves]
but not long after, amy and lai got to go off le, cos she need to go home to look after her doggie.hmm, i miss them so much.
den we went ard to centre point and i finally found my bible! yes. i bot it.. its pinkish in colour.. haha juz for me..
and fatre dat, we walked all the way to far east to the thai restaurent to hav our dinner..and its super frustrating..
cos the service dere is super super super bad. i suggest u guys beta not go dere anymore. i rather we go back to chinatown to hav that chicken rice or to yum cha.. haha.. feeling rich again.the waitress is so mean lah.. the plates still so wet, expect 5 ppl to share 3 glasses of water? rellie feel like screaming at them.. im getting so grouchy.
and after dat on the way home, we were thinking bout organising a st john island camp ourselves n we shall book a bungalow n plan everything on our own n stay dere for a few days to enjoy ourselves n to get back to the olden days where we hav our st john island camp, juz dat this time, it'll onli b us ard.. no more barracks, no more discipline, juz ourselves.. yay..
ok, im rellie very very tire.. and i wanna change my blog song again.. wanna change to jolin de dao dai..
listen to the lyrics carefully. its very sadly written.. n its very very meaningful.. i cried myself to sleep again..






today is a very fruitful and enjoyable day for me! went out to meet my ex classmates for k-ster.. we sang for 5 hrs lah.. haha.. having a very very nice time singing..i realise dat i missed them so much.. i wouldn mind if tmr is the end of the world. even thou dere are still lots of things dat i havn done.. anyw meng hui arh, i ordered the daily bread le.. heez.. juz remembered.. cos louis pass me the form n i filled it up and sent it le. hehz.. i still cant find my bible lah, even after i go to JP.. well, i guess i rellie hav to find a day to go down to sun tec to get it..
rellie rellie sang alot today, n i enjoyed their company so much, thanks sharon, minshan, peiwen, and menghui.. thanks for the accompanyment. we'll meet up often k? heez.. i love u guys so much.. nahz.. papa mama wo ai ni, muackx..
i still feel like goin to sing leh.. sing all the nice songs w/o the mic.. wah.. the feeling is so nice!
i miss u.. i miss eating cheesecake..
lucky tmr i work half day.. yayz. can see my pingz pingz le.. haha
i miss so many ppl..
today i woke up so early to rush to so many place.. i muz go to slp early le..
anyw, i had a dream this morning, and i still remembered it lor..
and the characters in dere is so ridiculous..
got rich, shun lai, and terence.. such a very very weird combination.. i shant tell my story here..
cos its rellie very very weird..
WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD...
and today at k-ster i tot of alot of dumb things.. rellie dumb ..
suddenly felt so sad again.. sobz..




kathie is bored, she's lazy, she's lonely, empty, depressed, dreaming, rotting..
on the verge of crying.. deprived of love..
i shall give all my love to pingz pingz.. haha..
pingz, u're dead meat..
kathie is goin mad again..
anyw, im thinking, if i cant hav a baby wif some one i like, i can juz give all my love to a dog..
i rellie wan to buy a dog u know..
at least a dog will alwiz b faithful..
human do change, juz like you, but dogs will nv..
u said u changed.. to what, i do not know..
im afraid to know..




i got my posting today, i bluffed kok hsien and pingz dat i got into nyp nursing, and im very sad.. heex.. well, i got into np biz studies lah, my first choice..im so excited, cos sch will start officially on april 26 i think.. so i'll b quite busy cos rem im going to b a nerd? rushing home everyday after sch to mug.. so will hav less time for u guys le wor, but i'll still give my priority to pingz pingz they all de.. haha.. honoured?
today i went to bugis AGAIN. but wif jie sung lah.. went shopping again. i bot another skirt.. die le, im rellie shoppign crazy.. need to stop my hobby le.. n i met up wif wai cheng didi after dat n went to coffee bean from 5 to 8 pm.. to talk n chit chat.. logn time nv sit at coffee bean so long le.. miss the times yah. im so tired.. tmr got work.. i beta slp early.. u guys too k? dere's papers tmr! gAmbatE!

my blog's song is very nice and touching rite? the mtv is even sadder.. i alwiz want to cry after listening to it.
ni ku zhe dui wo shuo, tong hua li dou shi pian ren de, ni bu ke neng shi wo de wang zi... dere's no happie ending... wadever live happily after, its all crap.
ye xu ni bu hui dong, dang ni shuo ai wo yi hou, wo de tian kong, xing xing dou liang le..




today is family day wor,went to jurong east to have lunch and its super hot lah, perspiring all over.. and i bot my favourite confectionery.. lemoney cheese cake and egg tarts.. omg, its damn cheesy n super nice.. not too soft n not too hard thou, juz the perfect way it sud b.. den after dat we went to a ulu temple where my daddy is praying, i din know thay hav a thai service for dat too wor..haha sho amused by dat.. hmm, soon after we headed for bugis for shopping!yeS its SHOPPING oh..but b4 dat we went to waterloo street to pray first, and suprise surprise surprise, guess whom i bump into? sir kelvin lee wor, sud i not address him sir? well, he was wif his sunglasses in his car, n looking my direction, i tot which ganster looking at me, den after, he took off the glasses and waved to me.. wah, my mum was shocked too. he's bald tthough, from ns i think.n wen i went to the temple, din expect to bump into him dere again. and den we talk abit lor, asking bout things, i din know im dat shou wif him lah, nv rellie tok to him b4.. and guess wad, he's dressed in those collared shirts and black pants, so its liek serious business. n den he told me he's praying b4 returning to his office nearby..den we talk for a while more n he left..he's still short thou.. oopx =X ahha ok, done wif dat, and next of cos is shopping lah.. i bot lee shen jie's cd, its damn nice lor, the first few songs, those dat me n kok hsien sang at k-ster.. so sad de.. hmm, but its ok, i went to shop and bot another skirt and 3 tops.. haha im so happie cos i dun hav to pay for them.. hehz. *gRiNX* actually i wanted to buy a bag de, but i dunno if i sud get it, shall seek ppl's opinion first. and our next stop is east coast park.. im wearing a skirt lah, my forgetful daddy din tell me dat i sud wear pants or wad instead. but still, i cycled wif my sister. we took the double seater de, n of cos my younger sister sat in front, she cycled me for 20 mins, n my legs hanging in the air, in then end now got 2 big blue blacks le.. sobz sobz.. and so i sat on the bench and listened to my twins and lee shen jie's album.. damn nice lah, looking at the sea, air planes and listenign to nice songs.. juz dat something else is missing thou.. it'll nv b complete w/o you.. den after dat, its dinner time le. n im super hungry lah, so i suggested going to the thai restaurant we usually frequent.. the dishes are so nice, had pineapple rice, seafood tom yam, baby kai lan, green curry wif chicken, beef hor fun, and deep fried garoupa in thai style.. haha nice menu rite? and i had a very very nice dinner! n now im back home after my shower blogging while all my frens are busy slogging away wif their common test.. hmm, muz jia you k? after this few days of mugging, den its playing time.. dun forget to ask me out oh.. heh heh.. gAmbatE ba.. =)




Jun & Jen were a pair of young couple...

Jun was veri charming
& many girls could`t help falling in love with him...
therefore, he became quite a flirt.

As for Jen, she was an ordinary girl with average looks.
Although there were quite a number of guys chasing her,
jen only had Jun in her heart.
altought She knew that one day Jun would eventually leave her.
.she still continued to love him wholeheartedly...
Jen loves rainy days...she loves playing in the rain,
& whenever Jun wanted to join her, she'll always stop him from joinin.

Jun then ask her; Why don't you let me join you?
Jen replied;Err..er..because i don't want you to fall sick.
Jun then ask her again;If playing in the rain will make me fall sick,
then why are you still doing it?

But each time Jen will always keep quiet &smile at him...
Although Jun was`t able to join her, he felt happy.
To him, as long as Jen was happy, he'll be happy as well.

However, nothin last long...
Jun soon fell for another girl after two months.
He even love the girl more deeply den he love jen

One day, while Jun & Jen were having their dinner ,
Jun told Jen that this would be their last dinner together...
Jen looked at him. She knew dat this was going to happen,
but she choose not to ask any farther...

Jun then requested for a break up..
And Jen...she accepted willingly... partly because,
she knew...Jun was just like the wind...never stop at any point.

That night..it was to be the last time Jun send Jen home..
Jen kept veri quiet...
although deep down she wanted to know the reasons but she choose not to ask.
Just when Jen was about to step into the lift,
Jun stop her.

He said:Jen, I'm really sorry that i've let you down.
But i'll never forget those days when i see you playing in the rain...
those are those are the most happy & unforgottable memories i had with you

After listening to Jun, Jen could't help it but cried..
Jun hugged her tightly.
He said:Jen,There's one question i wanted to ask you long ago...
Why is it everytime when you are playing in the rain,
you just would`t allow me to accompany you?
Jen was stunned..pausing for a few seconds,
Jen replied...Because...
Because i don't wish to let you know...I was crying..




when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
when the one you like is crying, you ended up comforting.
i found this so true..
sorry, i ended up crying.. in the first place, i sudn made you cry.
maybe u've forgotten,
but i never will forget the day we cried.. never ever..
for the tears remained in our hearts..
all i could say is im sorry..
i love you more than anything else in the world,
more than i ever could imagine.




today is freaky friday.. haha, not exactly. well, today is the launch of TWINS new album. n i bot it straight wen i arrives in the shop. i din know it was their cd lah, den the delivery guy came, so i went over to check lo, and surprise surprise, their album is damn big lor.. bigger den A4 size? and it came wif posters.. so super sweet and nice lah. dat i jumped up and down at the sight of it, so many ppl in the shop was looking at me..oopx..and i immediately bot it and played it on air in the shop.. wow..hmm, nothin much happened today, juz bot a nicey kit kat for myself . its in the fridge now, cos it was so soft dat i cant eat it.. haha.. im gonna eat it very soon..heh..but my gums still hurts.. my mum said mayb its the wisdom tooth.but such a dumb gal like me, no nid wisdom tooth ba.. haha.. crapz.. i saw a guy who looks like nicholas today. really really lookalike lor.. haha. but its not him i know..im so tire today, probably lack of sleep ba.. i juz finished my story book yest nite.. its such a nice book wif a happie ending.. fairy tale.. knowing dat it will nv happen to me.. hey guys, still rem dat i said dat i wanted to get a child but not get married? im sure kok hsien remembered.. well, i suddenly tot of it yest.. i dun really mind leh.. i even plan liao.. haha mayb im a little crazy, but at least i can choose the father of the child rite? even if it cant b a fairy tale.. i think im sick in my mind. omg.but i think its very wei da oso leh.. bringing up the child, cos at least its the flesh and blood of 2 of us rite? im satisfied wif dat. haiyo, i think im really crazy, dun bother bout me.. haha
i miss pingz so much, i wanna go out wif u! gossip bout twins n go shopping!
i love you!
i love all my friends.
i still love you..




The greatest pain in life is not to die,
but to be ignored.

To lose the person you love so much to another
who doesn't care at all.

To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.

When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.

To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life, is not to die,
but to be forgotten.

To be left in the dust after
another's great achievement.

To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".

When you show someone your innermost thoughts
and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you
when you need someone to lift your spirits.

When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.

Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?

Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.

If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.

You will simply be ignored... forgotten...
as you have done to others.




so fast thursday liao wor.. time is goin by so fast. wad m i thinking? well well, today was a little busy. i've got work and i met up wif a few ppl.. went to work early in the morning n listen to story of my fren got"molested" on the train, den after a few hours of lazing around, im off work.and off i went to meet yang sen for pasta mania, its been ages since i last taste it.. n i recall some memories wen i was in J1, the happie ones of cos.. how i hope time would turn back den. den we went to walk around, n i was hoping to find dat precious moments bible lah.. went to all the shops, but it was fruitless.so next, i decided to carry on wif my search n go all the way to west mall.hmm, im so determine to get the bible. so we took a ulu old bus to west mall, n i ask ys to ask her dearie gf out too, so i can get a good look of her.. heh.. she's so small size.. heez.. n looks so cutez man, as cutez as me.. *gRiNZ well i still din manage to find my bible at westmall after my thorough search.so, sad as i may b, i dragged myself to lot 1 to meet louis for dinner after his gym workout.. haha and he did me a disfavour.. think dere's smthg grammatically wrong wif dat.. shant elaborate more thou. but i had a very full dinner.. n i had a nice chat wif him.. listening and sharing stories.smilez.. and next, i heard dat Jurong point has got the bible. im heading for it soon. anyone? i had a nice day afterall.. =)




one big bad news.. i broke one of my finger nails, juz like last time my toe nail got step by pingz n got plucked out.. its so painful.. and bleeding like waterfall.. i bet if pingz see le, she will faint de.i miss her so much. but i understand the need to mug for block test.. its very very important. i'll pray for all of my frens dat they'll do very very well n shocked my darryl lim. haha.. im so bored during these few weeks.. every1 busy wif exams.. nvm, i shall start my readin mania to kp up wif my english standard n not getting the last percentile le.. so malu, n yet i still goes ard teling everyone. dat goes to show how thick skin kathie kat is.. hehz.i wanna go play badminton, but everyone seems busy. its ok, i shall wait.. dats my hobby.. anyway, got something else to blog. my younger sis jzu went for an operation yest to remove our "family heirloom" the black dot on our faces.. btu gotta put a plaster lah.. im thinking if i sud go for it and remove dat 2 black water melon seeds on my face.. wad u guys think? im serious ok!pls pls tell me.. thanksz i love u loads..




The God who made the firmament,
Who made the deepest sea,
The God who put the stars in place
Is the God who cares for me. —Berg

Have faith in God, the sun will shine,
Though dark your path may be today;
His love has planned your way and mine,
Have faith in God, have faith alway. —Anon




today is a sunday.guess where i went to.. i went to church wif louis.He's late,and so we bof ended up late.hmm, still i din sing, cos i aint used to it, unless my frens r ard, i'll open my big mouth n sing wif my frens happily shoulders to shoulders.. i actually paid attention wor.. listenign hard to every word the pastor or speaker had to said.i learnt alot of lesson today. Wait patiently for God. dere's more.. n i actually remembered.. n im going to get myself a precious moments bible soon i guess.becos wen im in bangkok for my hols, i read it to bed everynite n i alwiz managed to sleep very very soundly n peacefully.. im sure it would hav the same calming n reassuring effect on me again de.=) smilez. after that i went to causeway point to meet my mum, and sisters for lunch. guess wad, they went to jack's place for lunch lor.. and i ordered something special.. Lobster baked rice.. the cheese is so strong and the lobster definitely tastes heavenly.. after dat i went to my cousin's hse to accompany em since they need a big sister like me to play toys with them.. heh.. and soon we were heading off to the swimming pool for a dip. erm well, i din go for a swim, im too shy to change and dere's juz too many ppl dat made me super shy.and den im back home for my dinner.. im having a bad gum ache. i had to remain in a fixed position everynite wen i slp.. its so miserable.im being forced to go to the dentist tmr.. im afraid..think its becos i had too much chocolates dat day wen im sad.. this is my retribution.. cant blame anyoen else.. sobz sobz.. im still in pain.. i hope my tooth n gums would juz stop hurting.. please.




no wonder ppl love the 1st 3 months in jc and hate the rest of the life after dat..




wait wait wait,, right here waiting..
im so irritated..
y do humans hav to spend so much of their life waiting?




feel so inferior, nahz, im not goin to blog today..actually wanna tell my story bout yest's excursion at yUm Cha and k-SteR de.. bye my dear blog. i beg u pls dun go away..




hmm, im such a PigX today.. slept from 430 to 830. and i forced myself not to think of anything, cos halfway im awaken by a call.wen i got home i wasn rellie in a good mood, so i bot myself my fav choc n started munching on it and told myself i'll b happie.. and i beta go to slp in case i cry again.. very tiring de leh.. so its beta to slp n not do anything else.. and im clearing all my J1's work n files for pingz pingz plus my sis's NJ and HCJC notes for dat lazy pigz. i cant believe i actually had all my worksheets filed neatly n nicely in the ringfiles. i actually did study wor..*miRaCLe* and im goin to clear those stuffs for her. this is the first tiem i can see dat actually my study table is actually quite big and spacious after all the dumb things are gone. and next im targeting my drawers n my dressin cupboard..im goin to beautify up my room, lidat i wont hav time to think of other sad stuffs too rite. wad a good idea.and tmr im goin to meet my dearest kok, dal, jackie, amy and pingz. promise to take alot of photos.. i juz love posing in front of the cam. n i juz took one wif my toiletbowl plus toilet roll too. shall post it up some time soon.. and u'll c a crappy cat.. smiling at the toilet bowl.. hmm.. im so bored now. actually feel lik catching movie de.. wanna watch HitCh and BooGeymaN..but i dun feel like steppin into the theatre wif anyone else.. and dat day while i was packing my drawers, i came across all the tiz stubs.. we've watch 10 movies tog so far.. and the latest one was lik nov..er..well, i think i beta rent vcds at home to watch till the day i found my courage to step into the movies.. *gamBatE* dats all for tday, tmr will b a better day i promise..




Tmr is 8th of march, oso mean 38 fu nu jie! haha.. hope all the women in the world gets to enjoy this day!
i promised to blog onli happie entries! here i m.. today arh, hmm, knew a few new frens whom are reallie nice, got one is super stella lookalik, initially dun wanna talk to her, but after a while, found out she's pretty nice.. haha hmm, went to the library today and borrowed a few more books.. haha, im becoming a nerd! a CUTEX nerd wor.. den i went home to sleep till 6 plus before i go to bathe and watch my favourite tv.. yayz. im meeting kor kor YS on wednesday, still deciding wad to do ne.. go coffee bean, mayb go for a movie, hope he can help me wif my fear of entering the cinema after so many months.. haha..kekez.. i was busy thinking if i sud still send dat msg in the morning at 6am like i used to. but i decided to reassure kathie dat NO. yes. kathie kat muz hav determination oh! GamBaTe nEHZ.. n i miss huiling.. yepz.. okiz. i need to go n pack my table le lah, its in a mess now.. like earthwuake juz hapened in my room.. haha.. take care guys.. i miss all of u loads.. my frens and enemies? but not dat ghost ok!




i feel like im aunt agony.. but i enjoys helping ppl and listenin to their problems.. feel free to come to aunt kathie kathie kat if u need a shoulder to cry, a warm hug, a listening ear or wadever. u name it, i'll try my best!




i've been talkin to alot of ppl.. xiaohui, mengsy, wai cheng, and mr lee.. cant get to slp after hearing one big bad news..
my resolutions. my blog is goin to contain all happie entries of the day.. the sad n bad ones will be thrown into my heart to b locked up forever.
kathie kathie kat has gotten a A2 for her chinese.. it isn exactly wad she wants.. and she will work very hard from now on..
New rules for kathie kat: No Bf for the next 3 yrs in poly, rush home after sch to study, be a full time nerd.. Yayz.
This is going to b a brand new life for kathie kat..
i cried till i had no more tears left..




If a boy cries.
Don't let a boy cry.If a boy cries in front of you, it means that he couldn't take it anymore.If you took his hand,he would stay with you for the rest of your life;If you let him go, he couldn't go back to being himself anymore.A boy won't cry easily,except in front of the person who he love the most,he becomes weak.A boy won't cry easily,only when he love you the most,he put down his ego.Girls, if a boy cried bcoz of you,please hold his hands firmly,he's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.Girls, if a boy cried bcoz of you,please don't give him up,maybe bcoz of your decision,you ruin his life.To my friends...Ponder this message seriously.Don't do this to a boy,You may regret for the rest of your life.Maybe in your life,he's the only one that love you the most.Remember this lesson...




i found the perfect word. "dao". u are the one who chose to let go..it seems to me u are doing so..u chose to be what you are..but now..i dun even know wad i hav for you..its just so strange.. i really hope i can find dat someone to talk to.. to tell my real feelings.. to pour everything out.. and lock it up forever so dat i'll nv think of it again..i jux found it so ambiguous..so typical of kathie.. to b jealous over such little things.. i bet i was lidat in the past.. i'll nv change..for i'll b right here waiting.




i dunno what m i goin to do.i hate you now. what she says is true after all. Why did i choose to believe you? when all you u do is hurt me.. i hope im not being jealous over these small little things..but i know i am! im going crazy again le..
kathie kathie kathie kathie!




here i am, trying to apply for my courses at this hour of the night. the system is super lag, if i cant get it done, i'll have to go down to the poly tmr to get it over and done with.
juz now read something.. let me ask a qn. if given a choice, will you choose to go back in time? u muz ans first b4 reading on to my comments.
alot of times i tell myself, if only i could go back to the times wen blah blah blah, i'll study hard, change decisions and stuffs.. wont make the same mistake again and etc.. during this few months, i told myself if only i could turn back time, things wouldn come to this stage..
But if u look from another angle, who ever told u dat, if given a chance to go back, u would still possess the knowledge of the past? can u make sure dat u would not take the same route and make the same decision? dere must be a reason for u making such a decision in the past.dat is why u chose dat path which leads to the present.. and we are unable to change the past, so therefore, we hav to look forward to our future.. we can mould our future, because the decision of the future lies in our own hands..
ocassionally, its all right to recall the past tense and reminisc the fond memories of the past..
but no matter what, i'll still hold on to the future.. that everything in life is predestined and fated.
if its yours, it will be yours.. if its not, it will nv ever be yours..
but still our happiness is for us to decide, upon our hands..
believe in faith.. i believe happiness is not far away..
And i believe in love.. True love will never go away..




woke up at 545 this morning.. juz had my lunch.. jiesung juz told me dat the A levels results will b out this friday. asked if i wanna go back..im thinking..i tot im nv going to step in dat place again.. the place wif so much memories ever since the 1st 3 months..the happie 1st 3 months.. and the sorrowful last 3 months.. dere are things dat i ought not to say.. im sorry i din c u teck koon.. i'll wave to u if i really c u ok? juz now dat dumbo gog bro of mine smsed me to ask if im feeling lonely?
i've got my bolster and diary and chocs and you in my mind. dat's enough. and now, im going to bed.. yes.. im going to take my nap.. and hope i nv wakes up again..i dun nid to hav my chinese or pw results.. they are not important anymore.. its the past, like u say..
actually i've a song for u.or sud i say the lyrics suits wad i wanna say..




When all is lost,i only got you inside my mind to keep me going..
even though u mite not be around.




Right here waiting..
i've been thinking about this song the whole day. by Richard Marx.
i duno wad to write.. all i wanted was to listen to songs..
dao Dai,Pu tong peng you,ai wo bie zou,tong hua, ai wo hai shi ta..
y do tears alwiz flows out wen i least want it to?m i a water bucket? nvm, its ok, kathie kat will jia you..
i've learn to b independent.i've alwiz been independent,kpign everything to myself.. i can do it this time too..its juz a normal routine, i kp reminding myself..
i've also learnt dat ppl come to this world alone and leave this world alone, dun they.. which includes me..
its no use getting upset i know..
but its easy to say..
n wen i tried to stand up, things get me down again..
n look, nobody will really care..
ni hao jiu hao..
today wai cheng ask me if i believe in true love?
n dunno y he suddenly wans to b my little god brother..
weird..nvm,im a big sister now,i've got to take care of him.
heez.. got resposibility le..
anyway for u guys in a51, stop the green slip craze ba, study hard and dun end up like me ok?
i dun regret becos of dat i got bad results,at least i learnt something much more valuable den studies, dat is relationships and communication between ppl..
i still love u, for no reason..




kiss me & i'll b yours.. isn my blOg'S pic SweEtZ? *mUaCkx

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